Wednesday, August 19, 2009
The new beginningI cried my whole life out yesterday, wondering what was I so "dumb" to go through such feelings that are UNNECESSARY. I have no idea but I guess my love for someone has hit over the moon and it had ran crossed my faith with God. I felt so broken that there's no turning back in life. I just wanna give up and give in to Satan. I JUST WANT to.Yet the amazing thing is, despite what my mouth says and how my heart feels, I just don't have the willpower to do it. I mentioned all the negatives words, and my heart was so numbed to the extend I could feel the pain. I just want to give up and give in to that obstacle of my life. I blamed God, I criticized Him, I HATED Him. Honestly speaking, I can't imagine the ME on 18/8/09. I was LOST.However, weak I maybe, He chose to remain strong and faithful. I was just playing some music as I grumbled to my best friend. I was crying when I was typing out to him, I was just trying to be naive and stubborn to show him how big my problem was, yet a good friend like him, chose to remain silent and hear me out. He encourages me with what I already know, but it was not those words that changes my heart, rather it was care and love, it was the sincerity of that friendship, it was that friend who walked through good times and bad with you. His actions were not the ones that exactly broke me and saved me, it was the music behind my tears.
The God I know is righteous and holy
The God I know is faithful and true
The God I know my tower of refuge
Hearts are healed Christ revealed
The God I know light of the city
The God I know strengthens the weak
The God I know your heartbeats lives within me
As you are, so are we
When this song plays, I cried like there's no tomorrow. I can't believe what I just said. I felt like Peter who denied God but I thank God that I have that same strength from the Holy Spirit to beg for forgiveness. God showed Himself once again, so righteous and holy, so faithful and true. He is indeed MY tower of refuge in times like these, my heart is healed; Christ is revealed/manifested. My God is the light of my city, He is the One who strengthens the weak like me, His heartbeats live in the life of mine, just as He is, so am I, the little Christ.I can't believe how real God is. I can't believe I saw Him when I can't move on. I just can't believe. But God made ALL things possible, God made things to happen for the glory of His. He made it just for me.I started it on 19/9/08 and since then I have a tough time moving on, but on 19/8/09, I am holding onto someone's else hands who can carry me on from here. =]] I know many may think I am childish and stupid but I know whatever I am doing, I am doing it for my own benefit and I am happy with my actions. Good Job! Love,DaphnePS : specially thanks to Buddy, Drew, BaoBei and SweetBaby =]]
7:06:00 PM
Friday, August 14, 2009
Thank you for sharing your life with me
Thank you for making this journey a little lighter
Thank you for being my ears to hear me
Thank you for everything
Today, I cry out to my Love, to my Valentine
I seek that Love
The Love that no ones knew
Now that I have it
What about you
I crossed my fingers
I pinned my heart
I cried my life
I found my joy
Today is just the day
The day of flowing water
Today is just the day
The day of endless mercy
I stood in awe
I cried in buckets
I kneel in humility
I love with ALL
11:01:00 PM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I miss you =]]
9:07:00 PM
Saturday, August 08, 2009
WONDERS
WHY PEOPLE TALK WITHOUT USING THEIR BRAINS
AND ACTING AS IF THEY HAVE NO BRAIN.
WHY?
DON'T BOTHER TO ASK
SOME PEOPLE JUST BEHAVE LIKE THESE.
AWFUL
DON'T SAY WHAT YOU HAVE NO MEAN TO DO
10:21:00 AM
