Thursday, July 27, 2006
It has been a great few weeks of fighting against the road of loneliness. It wasnt until you enter again, my life is different. I always wonder why God didn't allow us to meet earlier or even let us be siblings. Well, I don't doubt God for the work He is doing within us.
Really, when I am at the edge of giving up, you came. When I am full of joy and no one to share with, I found you. When I cried out in the night, hopefully someone would know, you rang me up. Suddenly I realised I need someone like you. Life being life, there are a lot of unpreditable things, something happened that we became nothing in each others' life. Life in devastated mode.
I waited along the aisle, praying to God. Hopefully with His mighty hands everything will be possible. Well God sees the heart full of tears when no one ever do so. He healed the relationship, He made me satand up once again. He hold me once again. He brings you back into my path. My greatest desire: You walk with me through my life once again. Don't leave me..
12:22:00 AM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
With all the things in life I had get
I should take them without regret.
Never forget the lessons I've learned
and never forget the advise I've heard
Never forget the tears I've cried
And never forget the people that lied
But never forget my family and friends
And the good times I've had,
Rememer to the very end.
For this letter is for you
for real or for writing sake
It's up to you to decide..
You really caught my attention
that brought me lots of imagination
To feel my sincerity
Will you just keep your heart open
in the room of closure.
You put me alive again
gave me new breath to breathe.
Put me a smile to show
and a future to hold on.
With Love I sign off,
Daphne
11:29:00 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
This is going to be a post dedicated to someone. Someone who valued the meaning of Friendship. Is tough to be a friend's friend and is going to be tougher to be someone you regard BEST FRIEND's friend.
Someone had really admired me the way he treasured Friendship. Knowing there might be no turning(at least for now), he still holds on believing there will be no ending towards this friendship. He cried in the dark, pleading for God knows who to see. He quietly swallow the pain inside him with no regrets nor hatred but just a simple word, "SORRY".
I felt the pain to know someone like him is going through a stage like this. There is nothing I can do nor to offer than just to be there praying that God will open his buddy's heart. Is going to be a tough journey where I doubt I want to see myself going through but I am thankful I had a chance to walk this stage with a friend like him. Hold on to the beauty and the lovely moments spent. Nothing will come to an end till someone ENDED it. It will be alright, it will be fine. The rainbow is coming out soon.
Tears of pain
Fears of losing
Caught in the rain
Fought in smiling
Hold on to the beauty moments
Carry those colourful times
Believe in the painful obstacles
Gel in with this pain-love feelings
I believe and going to believe that everything will be alright and soon the sun will rise again. All will happen if only you are to believe once again.
6:52:00 PM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
I took my days to find my true friends
Through my days, I used my life to exchange your love
Giving up was never an easy solution
Holding on will never be the correct choice
Tell me then what I should do.
Hear the cries of my heart
Letting you go for a strangers' heart
I knew you will be happy
So I stood back and bless you evermore
Yet is ever you turn back and found me there
Remember I will always be the same person you knew
The girl you always want me to be
Now head on as I know your heart belongs to her
I dreamt of you and her
Holding hands and walk the journey of life
I broke down and cried
God, I dont want a long lonely journey back home
Sliently I watch
As I know when you cry you never show
But right in my heart, I know
For you are the honey and I am the bee
My heart speaks now, I LOVE YOU
10:32:00 PM
Monday, July 03, 2006
There was once, you just stomped into my life without giving me any notice, but truly I am glad you enter. Rushing and making your way into my life. I have no regret in allowing you to stay and grow and slowly become part of my life. Which explains why I miss you so much.
Just last week, we had a farewell "sabo" party for my beloved Emmie. She is heading on to another church with her parents. It was not long ago when our crossroad meets each others. She was then a very quiet gal, but it was not until you know her.. She and her crazy laughters, wowow will shock you.
Recalling those times that we spent together, getting to know each other even better. Allowing each other to grow in others' life. I really thank you that though at many times you always portary the quiet you but still you make a big difference in my life. We maybe apart in difference but never apart in God. In God we are still as close as before. I will love to meet up with you and catch up with you again. Don't you ever forget me on your 21st birthday and so when you are getting married. wohoho...
Just received a news that my beloved OGL, Bern is leaving Singapore tomorrow back to her hometown. It is so sudden, but still I thank her and will miss her because she was the OGL that brings my present class from a stage of stranger to be so closed. She did a fanastic job as a OGL. So much of her contribution yet we had never really thank her. Now she is going back to Indonesia, so far. I really hope we will still contact each other and the friendship never breaks. I wish you every success.
No more goodbyes please.
-Another is Carol. She is going to Australia to study coming 13 July. All the best, my dear.
11:13:00 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Recently, I had been rather busy due to the school Common Test. I am really thankful to God that He who bring me thus far and brought me through once again. Thank God. I can darely said I tried my best with no regret that whatever result I receive, I will give glory to God. Now is rushing for my ActionScript Project. It is really a tough one that can allow me to pull all my hair off my head, yet miracliously I had yet to give up. God's grace is pouring on me, that's why.
School academic aside. VoiceOut 2006/07 is coming. I am rather excited to see in come and past not because I hope is over, but rather after struggling so long as a team, I believe is time we show everyone all that we had prepared. As a team, we went through a lot, but nonetheless, we are still a team that stand the highest and strongest. Love you guys always and let us continue to work that extra harder to see VoiceOut turn to be a great success.
Now is school everything off. Recently everything had been just that great for me. The sweetness of God's grace and mercy on my lips, His favour upon me. Really, if anything in my mind says negative things about my God, I will REBUKE it in Jesus's name because my God is a FOREVER REAL GOD, not just in the history 2000 years ago, nor yesterday, but today and forever more, He is real and He is great. Trust me or rather trust Him, as you yourself experiencing it yourself.
Had some great time with one special and unique friend yesterday. She is awesome, she is brave, she is simply a "young" woman who seek God earnestly. Indeed, as I get to know her more, I found a lot of myself in her and our conversation never ends. We give each other our full attention and trust each other in the journey ahead. We are super close nor understand each other very well but slowly we will reach there as we are walking that direction. I messaged her yesterday night and she is so funny, okay. She told me this morning, "I almost cry." Hey, I didn't have any intention to do so, is just from the bottom of my heart.
Sometimes, I find myself so "kan chiong" that I feel time is not the solution and just wanna jump to conclusion. Yet in life, though time is not everything, but time is the foundation of everything. Truly in this friendship, time is the source of how strong it will go. Gal, like I said, bad times will pass by fast cause time will never heal the pain, is only God the healer, who does it. My promise to you is that I may not understand what you are going through, simply because I am not you, but I can always be the person who will be there for you to accompany you do anything. So much so that I grow to love you more.
I wonder at times, did God create us same yet different. I wanna do crazy things with you, I wanna have emo talks with you, I wanna be serious together with you when is work times. I wanna grow together with you to be the Woman after God's own heart. I wanna do all with you, throgh tears and pain, joy and laughter. Girl, indeed in you, I enjoy amy life more with God cause He had sent a sweet angel like you to me. So much I want to say, yet I guess silence at times is powerful. May God be the center and the head of our everlasting friendship.
After reading so much, I hope you people didn't get the wrong idea of me loving another girl, but yet she is really someone special in my heart since she stomped her foot in my heart. You know who you are and truly I can only say Thank God dearie.
Fire burning in me to grow myself closer
Ice breaker is here to tear down the blocker
I am a Christ-seeker
Bring more people like you and me higher
Friends I am here
The same one you know long long time ago
I will grow to be like the friend you always been
5:48:00 PM