Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Hoping to see the change in you!
Today, I had a chat with this boy called Eugene! We were merely just chatting when I think he lost his control and cried. He said that everything was not goin his way now..Everything.. He had never tasted the taste of failing and losing for the past years and now when he felt it, he can't take it! I was very suprise by him.. I do not know him very very well, he was just a schoolmate of mine! I think it is because of God that gave him the power to share so much with me!!
I don't know how I can tell him, cause I am not good in typing.. I can always help someone face to face or when we are on the phone.. It was kind of tough when I need to type out.. But I didn't stop, yet I tried my best and give it a shot!! I tried to tell him some so called "SENSES".. Though I don't think it was, yet a word of adivse! What more encouarging was he took up my courage and dealing that he won't scold bad words! I was pleased by him!! I hope he will not let me down! Eugene, I have faith in you that you will not let me down!
I told him and give him a word to read! These words had always touched me and reminded me that God is faithful and He is true.. He did everything for us.. He will never leave us alone since we want Him with us!
One night I dreamed a dream
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes of my life.
For each scene,I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the foot prints in the sand and to my surprise
I noticed that many times along the path of my life there was only one set of footsteps.
I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life.
this really bothered me and I questioned the Lord in dilemma.
"Lord, you told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and guide me all the way, all my days. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I needed You most, You leave me."
He whsipered, "My precious child, my precious, precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never ever during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you."
This is a word of encouraging who felt that God is distant, when He is not! Many a time this is the word that comforts me, when i am lost and running away from God. A word that brings hope to the disappointed, encouragement to one that has lose the battle, medicine to cure the pain in the time! Again and again this had reminded me of the time when faith is needed to believe, trust is needed to put there. The hope that I have had was to always allow God to use me to His fullest and guide me whenever I need.
I hope this will not just encourage me but also many people who were around me, that life is more than what we are seeking, yet allowing God to work in us!! When we were down and dishearted, give God a chance to carry us, cause if not, we will never have the chance to be able to stand up again!
10:49:00 PM
Sunday, June 20, 2004
Dwelling Places
Lovely are Your dwelling places
Thirsty, I come after You
Jesus my joy, my reward, Your love's restoring my soul
Now I'm Yours and You are mine
and from my heart a song will rise
chorus:
I love You, I love You, I love You
I love You, I love You, I love You
I love You, I love You, I love You
and my heart will follow wholly after You
Jesus there's none beside you
Righteous, ruler of the earth
Nation will come and bow down
Name after all names I sing You praises
and all I can say to you is...
~We all know that God is good, God did wonderous acts in our life.. I just have no idea how can i express myself to you people the goodness of God who had never leave me alone, even when I want to give up on Him because of suitations in life, He is still there guiding me along my way! He listened to my complains and help me through and He NEVER NEVER leave me alone!!
At times I just wonder, why do God treat me/us so nice when at times we can't even be bothered with Him? Why? Now I know because He had sent His One and Only son, Jesus to cover all our sins and wickness and now He sees us as beautiful sons and daughters of His because we are all covered with Jesus' goodness! Thank you Lord!
Now as I write this post, I feel like crying out to God because of His great mercy and grace that was given by Him to my life! Always recalling the day when I accepted Him, the feeling of love, the feeling of peace, the feeling of sercure was filled by His presence. The fear of night, the fear of tomorrow, the fear of everything was eased by Him by His presence too!
I thank God that when I accepted Him, I know nothing about God, His Son and the Holy Spirit. I just knew it was a new religion that I am taking up! Throughout these years, God showed me so many things that I had learnt to grab hold of Him and His love! Prayers, fasting and faith had brought me this far, till what i am now, but glory don't come to me because I am self-discipline to pray, to fast and to cope hold my mind to believe yet it is God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit that needed to be mentioned because of them I am managed to allow Them to change me! Praise the Lord!
I will surrender my life to God as a living sacrifice, to be mould and used by Him again.. With no regrets and agreed to everything that He had planned. I really have no idea how to express my love and graditude to Him yet the above song that sang by Hillsongs touched me deeply!
I truly love Jesus what about you, my dear, my frinds, my family, my brothers and my sisters? What about you, who are reading?
8:11:00 PM
Saturday, June 19, 2004
Memorables days
I lost count when I love you!
I am heading towards where we belong.
I will wait till the day you come.
From now till then, I will always be!
Let bygones be bygones,
Let me prove that I truly do!
For time shall show,
My love for you is really true!
Taking a step at a time,
Hoping you will lift me up when I fall.
Taking a step at a time,
Slowly, I'll say "I LOVE YOU!"
10:12:00 PM
Friday, June 18, 2004
..As days passed by, i realised i love you more and more!! I can't stop myself from thinking you.. I hide those feelings in me, just to tell you that what matters is not i care in my mouth yet in my heart! I hold to myself that i love you, when the time comes, i will share and boldly tell, I truly only love you!..
10:17:00 PM
Thursday, June 17, 2004
God will make a way
God will make a way
When there seems to be no way
He works in way we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With Love and Strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and Earth will fade
But His word will still remain
He will do something new today
God will make a way
When there seems to be no way
He works in way we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With Love and Strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
~This is a meaningful song! When we faced trails and problems we shall not fear, because God will make a way out for us! As long as we believe, God will change our life and help us through, He will help us! No matter how tough life maybe, with God who strengthen us nothing is impossible!! May God bless you who read and seek Him when you are down!!
5:59:00 PM
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
I really have no idea what i want in life!! Going through everyday so slack and relax!! Promise to work hard, but i just don't know why, my mind is only filled with God!! I cannot move on.. I can't concentrate!! I seemed so happy yet deep down in me, i am so stress!! haiz. God is my only resource in life!! haiz.. i shall not update so much today, because there isn't much that had happened.. Just resting because i am simply to sick to even continue!!
8:44:00 PM
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Wow, i really can't stand myself with this fever of 38 degree and above, my head seemed as though is burning, get me a egg and i think it can be boiled! haha..
What is it about love that we are seeking? Teenagers want boy-girl relationship love which almost everyone are tempted to do so!! So do I, but this love line has never seemed to be by my side. I was always hurt by people and i can neven get the one i love by my side. Maybe i am too rush, maybe i am too impatient! But i am someone who is weak at heart that needed someone to guide me through while i am sad..
God sent me this one, who i thought it wasn't true, but i asked for confirmation and through what the preacher preach that day when i was in YMM, FOLLOWED YOUR HEART! When God sent me him, i thought we were just friends, but God told me it was love, and it begins but then, it was impossible, because of some reasons or another!! I was hurt, but i will wait, cause God told me you were the one and i shall follow, along the way, i will be tempted with other boys, but i will fix my heart of you alone! This too i follow, because God is teaching me to be pateint with all that i want in life, and by waiting and praying and asking, He will provides me with the best!!
Love for God grows, Love for you increased!
12:20:00 PM
Monday, June 14, 2004
I am so sorry that i have not been blogging for so long, but now as i start, i would really like to update people who are reading what's happening in my life..
Recently, life had been terrible, losing everything that i once thought i would have it for life..But... Anyway, life goes on!! Now all that i am seeking is my Lord, puting Him before my eveything.. Have faith in Him that he will guide me and pull me through!!
Today is a better day cause i know my God is there for me.. I feel stressed, i am vexed..So uptight!! But because in my Lord i find peace, i am glad!!
The trials we may have to face
When we'll be leaning on your grace
It will be Your strength that saves us
Your love that makes us strong
And through it all we'll sing this song
God loves and blessed us with his blessing at the beginning of the day.. and lightened our peace in the middle of the night!! haha.. God bless!!
10:31:00 AM
