Wednesday, September 27, 2006
This year had passed by AMAZINGLY fast. Before I could really reflect of what had exactly happened is already coming to the end of September. Before I can think more, Christmas should be knocking on my door, asking for presents, love and fun. I won’t recall since January 1, what had happened to my life as NOW is not year end yet; rather I would like to share about my SEPTEMBER.
As the calendar flips to 1st September, I will always be excited about this day as I recalled the many teachers who had stepped into my life to make my life a great difference. I appreciate all their works in my life thus I will always remember God’s grace and love for me as He sent the best teachers in my life to guide me to where I am today. (Teachers are not just who you see in school.) Teachers are Role Models who I looked up to especially their characters.
September is also a very special month because a couple of my best friends’ birthdays fall in this special month. 4th September, I have Eunice Ng. I get to know her in secondary school as she happened to be my senior. Knowing her while we were school girls and now she is a very pretty young lady. I am not joking and I believe she is handling well in life as she has an AWESOME God who is guiding her along her days of her life. (She brought me to Jesus) I may not have mentioned anything but surely you are one of the best gift from our God above.
The next day, 5th September is Mr Son Wei Meng. He is my Polytechnic lecturer but he only taught me when I first stepped into the school; Year 1 Semester 1. Now, he is more like a friend then a lecturer to me. He never fails to be there to hear me COMPLAIN about good things and about bad. He is a very practical man and at times I do look up to him for his NEVER GIVE-UP spirit. –Share a secret with, he COMPLAINS too. Sshhh- Sometimes because you are so practical, you tend to rule life just in your own hands. Well, everyone handles their precious life differently and just to say, “Your ways of handling yours are unique.” Thank you for being there in MSN when I needed someone to hear me out.
Continue counting and comes 11th September. Mr Mok Choong Leng is YOUR BIRTHDAY. He was my secondary teacher, but he had NEVER taught me before in lesson time but he had taught me the meaning of life. How to enjoy what you do and by trying your very best, no one can shut you off even if you fail. On top of all, he is HANDSOME. I really miss those days when you were just standing firm by my side teaching me the path to take in life. As I recalled you, how you had enjoyed disturbing me and how ever our friendship grew. I just want to send a reminder to you, if ever you read my blog, I will INVITE you on my 21st Birthday. Thank You and I really miss you.
Is my Birthday drawing near? 13 September! SIMON CHEO, WHERE ARE YOU? Hey, Simon, do you read my blog? If yes, I would like to share a very BIG secret to you, God loves 13 September most and is the most precious to Him. Do you know why? I tell you, because He created a promising man of His own to be born in this day and also He created me. Yes, Simon. We shared the SAME birthdays. Man, I will miss you and the time we exchange birthday wishes for each others. I pray that you are doing FINE there and enjoy the plans God had in stored for a man of faith like you. In your quiet ways, I had really been amazed by your faith in God. I admire you. I wish you all the best and Happy Birthday.
16th September, my assistant CLASS REP. He is another cool young gentleman with full of tricks and NONSENSE, but certainly he had brought LIVE to me. I enjoyed working with him and certainly love talking to him. (Our orientation)
I had not forgotten someone, just as I wanted to close the ACCOUNT for SEPTEMBER. DARYL LEE YONG MING, 29th September a day God had specially made for you. He is one of the few friends I had in church that I know longest, since we were Secondary 1. Like I always said, I knew him since he was a SMALL boy; shorter than me, but now he is a young man of God today. I just want to share how long and much we know each other. We knew each other as Yong Ming and my name, Lian Ping to Daryl and Daphne. Thank you my buddy for walking through life with me. I sincerely just want to take this time to thank you for being just who you are, special and rare.
Above are people who had inspired and impacted my life tremendously, but not forgetting friends whose birthdays fall in September too.
2 September Nadine
3 September Nas
4 September Krystal
5 September Brian
6 September RongJun, KaCho, Rachel
10 September Joyce
11 September Marie
16 September Carol Ong
17 September Mervyn
20 September Jolina
28 September Teong Hean, Yushan
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOLKS. I pray that God will continue to pour out blessings upon your life.
Have I not mentioned my birthday this year? I just don’t wish to mention anymore again. I wonder what exactly had happened to me this birthday. I am just utterly disappointed in people around me for once. A long waited once a year day, was TARNISHED and GONE because of PROMISES.
OKAY PEOPLE, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.
God I’ll trust in You for You know what I needed most in life now, because people had broken my heart too many times and now as I turned to You, Lord I know You will NEVER fail me in life. I ask for blessings in Jesus’ name. ? God answers me as I seek You; show me Your love and power. Thank you God. [my prayer to God cant be read by you, sorry]
10:11:00 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Have you ever been broken?
Physically, Emotionally and even SPIRITUALLY
Split into two?
While one half is DEAD!
And that was the happy side of you!
The part that survived is ALWAYS depressed
unwilling to accepted that life is a gift?
With a longing heart and weary eyes
You look down and begin to cry
Tears roll down; Sorrows unroll
And your once happy heart begins to unfold
Is this how you feel again and again?
As if life has to many downfalls and not enough upper ends?
What is the point of living you ask?
It can't be a gift...
You say, "Struggling up but at last..."
God breathed in HIM the life of us all
He didn't have to let you see
But His love was to strong!
His love is around us and never leaves, nor strays
But you have to accept it or you can turn it away.
So take it or leave it
It's all up to you
Just remember there is always a someone who cares deeply for you!
He watches you closely with big bright round eyes
Hoping and hoping you will change your mind
And run to Him fast with your arms open wide
And ask Him to keep you for he will NEVER leave your side!
~ God is great! He will never turn you down!~
Friends, the choice is now YOURS.
Come again and hear
When youur life is at a low
You dont know who to trust
So look inside and relize that the answers lies just within you
When you feel alone always;Remember
That God is in your sole
When you are in pain and you wish it's away;Remember
That after every storm comes a rainbow
Life is hard that is true BUT we will make it THROUGH
At the end of this time
We had gone through;Remeber
That God will be waiting at the gate for you
God loves You(EVERYONE)
Daphne_Chloe
5:38:00 PM
Thursday, September 14, 2006
This is a day where many of us are waiting for. It happens only once a year. We celebrate and enjoy this day with our love ones and friends. Like many, I had been waiting for this day to come especially this year because in every 19 years, you will have both your "english" and "lunar" birthday TOGETHER. Yet while waiting and excited about it, the day had arrived and it was the worst day of my life.
Wanna know why? (SHOULD I?? - People please don't be affected)
At midnight, on the dot of 13 September 2006. NO ONE WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY. The very first person to message me was because I wished him (same birthday). Offically, the very first person to message me is none of my best friends, she is my prayer partner. HEART BROKEN ONCE!
I woke up early, very early due to the many smses sent by friends and friends I don't expect. I am thankfully that there are so many people who remembers my birthday and wished me through different ways. I really appreicate. Thank you. Though I am thankful, yet I'm not happy. Sorry but to say, 1000 people wishes can never beat your 1 sms. Yet you NEVER even said Happy Birthday to me. HEART BROKEN TWICE! - SUPER BROKEN
I know many of us are busy or super busy but we still ought to have our dinner, don't we? The worst thing HAPPENED! NO ONE ASKED ME OUT. I was HOME the whole day,facing my precious Laptop. I felt so lonely and sad cause NO ONE remembers me. My heart broke. I thought the least I will be getting is spending time with my mother since my father is in China. YOU KNOW WHAT? She went out in the night to meet her friends leaving me at home. Thank God she bought me food else you will have to imagine a BIRTHDAY GIRL eats MAGGI NOODLE. HEART BROKEN THRICE!
This year, I was craving for Swensens Ice-Cream with friends singing me a lovely sweet birthday song. IS GONE. I was hoping to have a Crumbler(how you spell it) Bag and it gone too due to the price. I wanted a MP3. Don't even dare to dream on since it is so expensive. Least was, I want a birthday card to at least allow me to know I am really appreciated. NONE OF THESE WERE GIVEN. THE FORTH TIME- HEART BROKEN!
***People don't think of getting me those that I had mentioned, cause is NOT THE SAME ANYMORE***
How to be happy? HOW? When this is what you receive on your birthay?
5:33:00 PM
Monday, September 11, 2006
-ARE YOU THE ONE WHO WRITE THIS?-
Well, how such time has passed,
Back eighteen years, that on this day,
God smiled upon a newly born baby,
Daphne, she was named, for who we now pray.
The world is graced and blessed,
To witness your birth and ageing.
Like a rose, you bloom and mature each year.
Your class and aura beyond gauging.
When you smile, the room smiles helplessly back.
You see, on this special day, we celebrate,
Paying homage to who you are and who you've become,
And the path you have taken to reach this state.
Your day, I sincerely hope, will be splendid.
Immerse yourself in everyone's praise.
God knows you deserve it.
I know their hearts will flutter at your joyful gaze.
I know that on this day,
A proud father watches over his daughter.
As close siblings congratulate their sister,
And friends near and far, spare thoughts for you.
Even over the comparatively short time I've known you,
I've seen you turn from clueless schoolgirl to ambitious, promising woman.
You had aspirations,
I was there, when you were a dreamer.
But I saw dreams begin to become reality,
I saw you become an achiever.
This day, I celebrate your imprint.
'Cause you're a shining beacon to me.
Living proof for others to also see.
Though I'm not around you,
To give you gifts and gracious expression,
On this day, I'm thinking about you.
Writing a poem, in our usual unspoken discretion.
I wish you all the best,
Success for years to come.
Let this birthday be a celebration of the past,
But also a stage in the passage to adulthood.
As they chime your birthday song..
As you blow out the candle flames with your soft breath...
As you unwrap your presents...
Know that I'm thinking about you, particularly on this day.
I pay you my own tribute, wishing you fortune respectfully.
Begging the skies stay clear for you, no matter how mine turn grey.
I would love to give you everything, all that I can afford.
A lifetime supply of Cheds, or a necklace of pearl,
But, in our special case, this poem will have to do,
For today, I wish you the best, for you are the Birthday Girl.
-WOULD ANYONE WRITES ME THIS POEM?-
Dearest one,
On this special day, I want to wish you the greatest, happiest birthday ever; more than words can say. So Happy Birthday to you My Love. A Birthday wish from me to you its what I do to show you the love I have for you. Happy Birthday!
My birthday is drawing near
It was real swell
Everyone rang me
To wish me well
Families and Friends
Came over
They are/were here
For most of the days
My best present of all
Will be to have you
Thanks to God
For keeping me true
Love to all
Came from far and wide
I am thankful
For turning 19.
Shinning His Light,
Daphne_Chloe
3:52:00 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Thank God for exams and of course for lecturers who had given us tips for the exams. Well, not forgetting people who prayed alongside with me in my exams period. Now exams are over and I am so happy because that means no stress and late nights. There are times to be stress and to work, there are also time to play and relax and NOW is the time to play.
My family and I had headed down to Genting Highland on saturday night(2/9/06) and just got ourselves back on monday night (4/9/06). It wasn't my first trip there so I'm not really keen and excited.
Over there, the weather was not as cold as people thought but it is still cold and I didn't take a lot of pictures because the view there is worst that Singapore due to the dark black clouds. It was pouring since we reached there and thus made the whole trip BORING. I walked round and round the shopping centre and came to NOTHING that I would like to buy, except a magnet which I can have my photo but I DON'T HAVE A PHOTO WITH ME, else I will have a magnet with me and my dear one. sobz..
Nothing much done, and needed to be done so just go there and relax but throughout the whole trip I was missing him, imagining how great it will be if he is right there beside me. "dream on!" We reached Singapore at 11pm on monday night feeling so tired on the TOUGH ROAD IN THE UNCOMFORTABLE BUS but nonetheless, I thank God for this trip up to Genting with my family. Thank you God for your safety and your protection.
I had been through tough times that I can only explain and tell God cause people around me are thinking I am getting self-centered and SELFISH, thus there are no ways I can explain myself to share my deepest thoughts. I have to change myself but who will ever know I DID? No point telling me what is right and what is wrong, what needed to be done and what don't. Whatever is over is over, no more words needed to be said. Life goes on for me and allow me to enjoy my poly life from now till I graduate. Thank you.
Recently, I had been missing the small him at any point of my life. I cant stand not to have him around me. I miss those time when we were out together and work together and also given the chance to just see him from a far. I MISS HIM and I SERIOUSLY DO. I thank God that this feelings are still hidden only between me and my God. People who are reading this, please don't tell me anything of what I should do and not, I know which line I cant cross. I am just MISSING him.
Anyway, I have no idea what more to say than to just end of with I MISS YOU BOY!
Days are passing so fast and I am getting so sad and lonely each day. I just want the small him on my birthday. THAT'S ALL. AM I ASKING FOR TOO MUCH?????
10:18:00 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
The wall of Pride didn't fall on me this time round but disappointment did. I thought it happened in one place is already BAD yet it happened in the place I never expected. REALLY DISAPPOINTED. Stop telling me nonsense about anything. You may say I am selfish, self-centered and DUMB but listen, you aren't any better.
I don't want to comment, I WANT TO BE OUT. Thank God I am not there to be one of the brick else I will not know what to do. No more words to say, and please don't bother to even call my name please.
ARGH NO MORE GET LOST
1:13:00 PM
