Sunday, July 27, 2008
What is love?
I have been thinking about this question for sometimes, not because I am desperate to know, but I am just curious to know what it takes to love, to be loved and to stay there always. I am no longer very young, and after so long, I have never been into a relationship, what makes me know what exactly love is then? Although I can look upon many lasting couples around me, but that doesn't make me inherit their traits to know how to love! Love seems to be a journey and who then is willing to walk this journey with me to answer all my unknown!?
Is love all about gifts and surprises? I have received many gifts from guys before, and many of those are what surprises and bring that smile to my face, but is that love? I mean I know they sacrifice and then is that love also?
Is love about kisses and hugs? I mean to me those are just signs of affirmation to someone I appreciate! I mean I kiss and hug my daddy and I mean I am sure I love him, but that's not the kind of love I am referring. Does it means that if I kiss you or give you my warmest hug means I love you?
What is love? (Can someone enlightened me?)
I remembered when I set my vow unto God when I was 12 and renewing them every 2 years, I told God, I will set my life just for Him until He knows I am ready to get into one relationship, and then I know I just want to love God and set my life for Him alone until I was 18, I told God, this time round, I will set 3 years vow and after so, when I am 21, I will wish to find my other half. In fact, last year till this year, I was tempted by Satan. I was pushed to my max and I fell, but God being sovereign, He picks me up and since February I told God, I am going to run it well, till September this year.
I told God, I wish to have those guys who He thinks will suit me to enter my life 3 months before my vow ends, and God indeed allow this to come to pass. There are a few guys that enter my life and expressed their interest when when the time span knowing each other was short. Well, I can't deny I am spoiled for choices, because most of them has their own fair of charm and abilities. But like I said to many, they caught my eyes, but not one caught my heart yet. Well, some simply expressed their interest, but I know my stand, thus what I do after they say is, I will get to know them more as a friend, before I move on to decide and zoom down.
Now, I am quite happy in a way, because I am pampered and loved by many, yet vexed because I do not wish to see them investing so much to know that in the end, they do not stand a chance in my life. All of them are good and all of them are different, but I know and I know for sure, I can only choose ONE.
Daphne is lost in her own world of love and unknown.
What is love then?
d.
8:02:00 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
99 days
Today is the 99th days since my beloved uncle had left the world to visit a new world! I still miss him like he was so near me and family. After this incident, I had learnt to treasure and love the people around me more.
As I stepped into the 100th day, I promised I will move on high and far for God. I will still be there for my family, but I will set myself to serve God and His people even more now. I can't wait to serve and to love.
Moving on to the new phase of my life, I am simply just excited. Counting down to the end of SOT, is 4 weeks left! How time flies and how my life has been transformed. I am glad I have not regret this choice that I made in February this year! Thank God for being so faithful. I simply love my time in SOT, it has been the best honeymoon time I have with God.
So much to write but there is simply no time for me to do so. Till then.......
love,
d.
12:28:00 PM
Friday, July 18, 2008
Prayer Request : URGENT
Something is not right with my left eye, there seems to have a very big problem for me to see. I went to an optician, and he mentioned to me that I have a very bad, deteriorating lazy eye, and if I do not want to take care of it, my power (degree) will be shooting up like "crazy". My degrees now in 300 per side and less than half a year ago was just 125. There is a very huge jump and it is not common in my age, thus do pray for me. I need my eyes, and I want to protect my eyes the best I know how. Thank you.
I will be away for Mission to Batam on 8 - 10 August. Do keep me in prayer too.
Thanks,
Daphne
9:15:00 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Mercies that rise with the new morn
Set me apart as a new born
Each moment I live
By faith I believe
With You I'm NEVER aloneDarkness may come
Trails seems so long
You are the light I depend on
Through valleys and storms
Your Word keeps me strong
My Shelter, Refuge and Song
I trust in You
Every day I live I know You are my God
I lift my face and look to You my Lord
Even when the mountains tremble and the thousands fall
I will stand with You
My Jesus
TAKE MY ALLA song that wakes me up at 4am today will then be the song I dedicate to God.
Thank You for being so real in my life.
My shelter, refuge and song
My redeemer, savior and friend.
Love You Jesus
58 days left,
Daphne_Chloe
8:59:00 PM
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
The POWER of God
Lessons with Mike Connell is really awesome. Though it was something not very new to me, but I do enjoy the lessons and the foundation he laid for all students. The authority and power when we come in the name of Jesus', every knee must bow, every tongue confess; surely it will be, every devils have to flee. Today, was really hands on - PRACTICAL. I know after I went through deliverance many years ago, I focused on the Cross to lead my life, thus I believe, strongly believe the devils will not get a hold of me anymore. (demons do enter your body even after deliverance, because we choose to walk back the old ways, instead of following God)
I saw manifestation took place today. Some were really bad, while others were just normal. The tangible presence of the Lord is simply indescribable. I was more of like praying at the back scene though I was standing in front, because I am on duty. I got a chance to see many things before my very eyes also the anointing in Pastor Mike. It was really marvelous. I just want to thank God for setting us free, for giving us the liberty to be free. How to stay from God when everyday, He is bringing me closer to Himself?! I love God. He is my First and my Last! My Author and Finisher of my Faith.
Time is really speeding up so fast that I can't even catch enough rest, but I do not want to neglect my lovely blog because I know many people read, thus I will take the fastest time to complete an entry for the day. After so long, I finally got sometime to settle down to meet up with people; chill and catch up. Well, I really love this job, nothing beats the time I spent with people, but again, I'm a busy person! -BOOK ME IN ADVANCE-
I saw my dearie today! Once thing she said, "I slim down!" -to her only,cause I don't feel it-
When I saw her, we gave each other a hug, and I can't imagine I really miss her, so so so so so much. I am rather sad, because I am not going to have enough time this weekend to spend with her. I promised no matter what, I will be there for the dinner on Thursday.
My dear, as long as we confessed with our mouth and believe in hearts, that Jesus is the Son of God, we are saved! Do not think so much, and always you are someone that is special.
Mich-Ra-Daph <3s
Love is more than just a feeling that stays for a moment, it is a commitment that brings you through the moments. It is more than I love you, but also accepting that special one for who he/she is, the flaws and the plus! Many a time, I know feelings always run faster than thoughts, and when you confessed your love, the next moment you may think you just did a wrong thing in that very moment of your life. I had a chat with someone with great wisdom yesterday, who enlightened me. Though my heart maybe moved, but I am not going to compromise. I am not going to end my vow earlier or am I going to reject. The KEY POINT here is WAIT.
It is just part of a bigger picture that guys should wait for gals, but how many times now, is the other way round? Many tasks belongs to the guys are done by gals today, why is it so? Due to the fallen world. (I love what Pastor Tan shared on Sunday). Anyway, I am seriously tired of hearing and being moved by words, I am going to train my eyes to see than just to have my ears work hard to hear! A vow will never be broken, a vow will never be changed. It will be stated as it is, it will be till it come to pass! My God is faithful, thus I want to be faithful too.
Why am I bothered or what's the exact reason why I am whining on my blog! I don't know, but I just felt convicted to do it! I am not going to compromise, I am going to be my heartless me once again, who can't be bothered with feelings and emotions; even to the extend that you were to die for me.
For you:
Pray that God will open door for you to enter and win me over! The journey that you have given yourself is not going to be as easy than you think it is. I am not boasting but like I mentioned, you aren't the only choice I am left with, rather this time round, I am spoiled for it! More than that, you are trapping yourself with emotions you have no control of as well! I don't want to be a bird in that cage, nor do I wish to see you as a foundation of roots without is building! Make wise decision, right move, don't go with feelings believe and hear from God. Open your eyes, she is coming your way!
God, I am Yours today. I am humbling myself to serve this world of Yours again, with love and compassion! I love Jesus today. You are the LOVE, my FIRST LOVE. :)
Love J.
d.
9:41:00 PM
