Saturday, June 24, 2006
We went for Cruise today as a family. It wasnt really a Cruise cause is not what you expected in there. I had a late night sleep yesterday at around 3am and have to wake up at 5am to prepare myself as it takes sometimes to get to Tanah Barah(how you spell it). We need to reach there at 7am, nonetheless, we aren't late. 13 of us went from young to old..
Everything went on pretty well, till i board the boat and got myself a seat given by my auntie. I knocked myself against the WOODEN BLOCK. Is super painful and I think because of that bump and having to stay on the sea for long, I felt my head spinning since morning. It got worst when the boat trumbles alittle. Mum was always there for me nonetheless. She is as caring as always.
Something happened in the custom. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO ME MY FAULT, but MUMMY TOOK THE FAULT. It was then I felt how selfish I am. She was in the "office" for VERY VERY LONG and there I was with all my relatives. I was scared and I asked God, "Didnt you promise me that I will enjoy the cruise?" I almost cried to see my mother in there being QUESTIONED by SOME INDIAN PEOPLE. (not racist but they purposely make things difficult for her)When they called me in, trust me I will never forget the look on her face. She was so scared too, yet she tells me nothing will happened.
I shall not explain so much here but I see how great she is and how SELFISH I am, to claim I am a CHRISTIAN. Mummy, I will never forget what you had gone through today. Thank you and I am sorry. I love you mummy forever.
I LOVE YOU MUMMY
10:56:00 PM
Friday, June 23, 2006
I recalled the many times when you made me smile
I enjoyed those moments which you never leave
I empowered by the honey moon time span
I push on to those enlightment times with you again
Recently have been busy with a lot of I don't know thingy..Time seems to pass by so fast and before I can even catch a hold of everything, is gone and only memories of ashes behind. I seriously miss those time, those time with friends who never named themselves as friends, but buddies. They never failed you in life, though at many times they do.
Firstly, I miss my ex-cell group, Nehemiah 4.
2 years of family-ship is build and beyond anything will we be separated. I just miss those times of doing everything under the sun together with just one purpose, to obey the Lord.
Secondly, I miss my beloved class.
Anyone remember this picture taken more than a year ago? I miss those times, where all strangers from everywhere meet up to just have a purpose which is to mix friends and study..Love Gentries for life :)
Thirdly, I miss SIT club.
My grooming days were spent here. I just wanna thank everyone who had made my life colourful. If only I can turn back the time, my promise to everyone is I will try my best once again. :)
Lastly, I miss going out on Saturday. I miss the "gang".
Nonetheless, I will want to thank everyone who had made my previous saturday possible and sweet, lovely and memorable. Thanks.
3:20:00 PM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Love is just a tough word
How often when I see you, I prayed that you were just beside me forever. The ugly side of you had showed how unworthy it will be for me to like you, but I had learnt to take you as who you are, imperfect yet will be made perfect. You are sweet and there is no doubt about it. So this is something I pray and hope it will be conveyed to you one fine day.
Love is like the seeds of life,
To root is full of pain and strife.
But to grow it’s like a great Oak tree,
Straight and strong for eternity.
Love is what I offer you,
Steadfast, calm and oh, so true!
Love is life between two who shares,
A life between two who really cares.
Love is ours, if you agree,
To spend your life with me!
10:29:00 PM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
In Him we Trust
Did you have tears, today, to flow?
Was someone with you to wipe them away?
Just remember! Jesus wept too and we know,
There was pain in His Heart that day.
In this life we all have sorrow.
Be strong and of good courage; God says,
I trust for you a bright tomorrow,
So when the tears are gone..give Him Praise!
Do not give up what-ever you do
But hold on to the Lord's Hand.
He will carry you on through..
He will help you to be able to stand.
Trust in God each moment of the day,
He will be with you He sees your tears,
Healing I Pray will soon come your way,
Trust in Him; Obey cast off all fears.
Reach out to God; He will comfort you,
Strength and Peace will be given,
Remain close to Him be Faithful and true,
Prepare your life to meet Him in Heaven.
No tears will ever come again,
When we bid this world our good-bye,
No more trials and no more pain.
When we meet Jesus...in the sky!
11:06:00 PM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Love of Colours
No one to turn to
When life is in a mess
Playing tricks till tomorrow comes
Holding onto the false promises
Life will be a drag; Life will be a drag
History was a mistake
I never learnt
So who cares about God
When life is just so short
I am walking
Turning myself away
The world has changed
She is crying for so much more
Who then can statify?
The tears of pain
Agony of Whys
I'll never understand
Till You come to my life
Sit beside me
Holding on to my future
Today will not be yesterday tomorrow
Nor Tomorrow yesterday
It will be a perfect day
With our eyes seeing the beauty
Beauty creations of our Lord
Unique sunset with thousands of tones of colors
How special it is to have you here
No longer I but we
Painting the future with Love
11:01:00 PM
Monday, June 05, 2006
My Abide Waiting Room
Entering to a room of agony
Tough to even please myself
Looking upon the mirror
I saw an impatient girl
Who desperately want her way
She caught NOTHING
So blinded by the world
Caught up by the environment
Felt just like a tiny winny bird: Cant fly
Will good things happen in her life?
Will God unlock the door of the cage?
Will she freely be who she is once again?
Will all these happen?
As she abide in waiting
She waits in her room
Four walls of blues
But one presense of the Almighty
Great is He who is in her
A room filled today
8:51:00 PM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
So pain a thought
It seems at if I please no man
I cant make anyone happy
How much more can I soar before your very sight
'cause I am a nobody to you
You give me no space to stand
Then I rather you tell me
I appreciate you and truly I don't need you
In the sight of God
Believe me
I am somebody faithfully following Him
No man can give me what my soul needs
So why do I bother to please you
Make you happy
Not because I want to "suck up" to you
But yet more is that the Lord had taught me
To be faithful with little
So He will bless me with more
More than before
I had came to my senses
To the pain of life
In agony of the WHYs
I give up
I choose to let it all go
Unto the Hands of the Almighty
I bowed and cried before the Lord
I am not worthy
I am too self-centered
I am sorry
He lift me up this day
Hold me and say
"I love you so much"
"I am carrying your cross"
"Bear with it for just another short moments"
"I see what you are doing"
My heart was moved
My tears flowed
My souls rejoiced
Work the little and be faithful
One day you will work more than these
Cause you have proven to be faithful with little
Father we declare that we love You
We declare unfailing love for us
Father we declare that we love You
We declare unfailing love for us
11:09:00 PM
