Sunday, March 30, 2008
It's still so vivid how our path crossed. It was your smile that drew me to you, your uniform that allowed us to share a common topic and your passion which leads to a deeper relationship. It wasn't very long ago when our life journey met, and it never came to my mind that it would grow that strong.
Every moment I spent with you, I learnt something new.
Every story we shared, we talked about the grace and mercy of God.
Every smile, we give of love and care.
& Every day, I pray God gives you the power to share.
To AiHui :
You make my world so sweet by just hearing to what I have to say and lightening my loads by just giving me your time. I could never express how thankful I am each time you impart faith into my life, and my dear, do not let your age hinders your grow in Christ. You are much more brave that you think you are, stronger that what it seems and smarter than what you think you are. I am truly blessed this day, certainly so to have known you. You are the best gift God had given me this year and I am assured you are going to receive more than these! Hold onto the faith that was given to you and lean on His understanding for your life.
Remember yeah : When you sacrifice, God multiply. May this very special day overflow with love and peace
As I thank God for His grace, mercy and His wonders never cease
Each life you've been blessed to touch, reminds me to persevere
Your commitment and obedience to God open my heart and mind; SO CLEAR
The unwavering strength you possess
Ever faithful, ever loving, ever true
Happy Birthday Dear
Love,
d.
1:03:00 AM
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Sacrifice of Praise
God has been so real and I know He will be even more real to me in no times because I chose to keep my faith and eyes on Him and the Cross. Going to bible school will yet be the best choice and event that's going to happen this year. I am really excited. To be honest, I am afraid too. I tried to plan out my timetable for myself for the next 5 months and I am just thinking if I can pull myself through. I kept pushing myself to the grace of understanding about the promises God gave me, still I feared a little. I am leaning and placing a huge packet of faith to my Saviour's hands.
5.00am - Arise
5.05am - Exercise
5.30am - Wash Up
6.30am - Leave Home
7.45am - Reach Boon Lay MRT
Hopefully 8am - Reach Church Office
8.00am - Pray
8.45am - Class starts
1pm - Home sweet Home
I just going to make this timetable comes to pass. Going to grow spiritually, I am going to get myself physically fit too. With these, I am going to train my mental strength. I want to be fully stretched. This is going to be a big trial for me but I am foreseeing the grace that's going to be poured into my life, I am excited. I know there is nothing I will want to do, than to just focus on God and His will for me.
I want to be a sheep today. I just want to follow my shepherd's voice. As I walk through this stage of my life, I am believing for a breakthrough, a higher calling. He would not break me, rather He will restore me, and for every mini-stage, I am going to place my hope in Him. I will keep on walking despite how tough the journey maybe, I am going to run, no matter how tiring I may be. Above all, I am going to praise Him regardless how painful it's going to be.
It is so true that even when we walk through the valley of the shadow of death we fear no evil, for You are with me, Your rod and Your staff they comfort me. With experiences, I know it is only by trusting God, tough times will turn into strengthening moments. I love this, EVERY DISAPPOINTMENTS ARE GOD'S DIVINE APPOINTMENTS.
I am going to trust God in every area; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, financially. Everything, I am going to trust God. I am going to place my hope in Christ alone. God will never let me down. NEVER WILL HE FORSAKE YOU.
With this, I wish to receive my best birthday gift this year.
1) Graduation in SOT
Before I end, I going to write some presents which I wish to receive this year!
1) More friends to come to Christ and serve alongside me in CHC - N318 & N327
2) Boyfriend - Potential one!!
3) To be your friend and smile with you
4) Anything that you wish that I could have
I'm going to pamper myself a NKJV leather bible as a gift to myself, since I got into SOT. :P
love,
d.
*J, everything is gonna be alright. Trust God for more than these and remember God makes ways for us, even when we don't believe and when our eyes may not perceive. Your tears are seen by God, and from this moment as you trust, God is strengthening you and maximizing your capacity. Hold on my faith. Love.
12:14:00 AM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
After hearing this song from
Auntie Ruby's blog, I am really inspired to hear it more than once and would love to pass this song to as many friends as I can. I simply love the song and how God could have done more than these. Though it maybe a Christmas song, but surely is a good reminder for me (you) that I AM/ WE ARE the reason why there is Good Friday and Easter Sunday.
As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love
I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him
He is my reason to live
It makes me pondered that since I am the reason why He came to earth, then will He be the reason I am living for today?
Tears flowed,
d.
10:24:00 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
I remembered how I complained about anything and everything around this time last year. I complained the moment I got my letter of which company I was posted to for my attachment. I never understand, never will I! How can my school be so "dumb" to post me to Boon Lay for attachment when I am staying in Yishun. It wasn't as if the attachment was of good pay (or they so called it allowance), it was only $450 - cheap labour -
I complained about waking up early.
I complained about the long distance traveling.
I complained about all the electronic devices that we can't bring.
I complained about using a lousy non-camera phone.
I complained about my supervisors.
I complained about being lonely out there.
I complained about the tiredness.
I complained about anything and everything!
I never understand and I blame God for putting me through a tough time, it was 3 whole months of torture. Having to wake up at 5plus in the morning to prepare myself for work was not a easy task as I thought it was and having to only reach home at about 7.30pm everyday. I had no life then and I came to think that March 2007 to May too 2007 was yet the worst and driest period of my life in 2007. I was so tired almost any other moments. I never understand why I have to go through such pain. WHY GOD!
Today, 25th March 2008, I know why! God convinced me that whatever I had gone is for my own good. I got a good news from my Cell Group Leader just a moment ago that I got into Bible School. I was overwhelmed. My desire for this year has come to pass, and I am going to do my best this time round. I am going to study in Jurong West - City Harvest Church's building and the nearest MRT station is Boon Lay. Classes will start at 8.45am everyday, Monday to Friday.
I was brought back to this period last year where I traveled to Boon Lay everyday. God showed me why He allowed me to go through those times. I finally understood God was teaching me and guiding me. He brought me to those moments when I was so tired and I prayed for strength, to carry on! This period of my life is yet to be the most challenging period of my 20 years, having to hold on with jobs and spiritual studies. I am going to trust in God.
God is indeed a faithful God and many a time, we may not understand why, but there is certainly a reason behind every actions that God brings you to. If only, if only we believe.
Who are you trusting today?
A baseball in my hands cost $6.
A baseball in Mark McGuire's hands is worth $19 thousand.
Depending on whose hands it is in.
A basketball in my hands is worth $19.
A basketball in Michael Jordan's hands is worth $33 thousand.
Depending on whose hands it is in.
A tennis racket in my hands is useless .
A tennis racket in Venus Williams' hands produce victory in the world championships.
Depending on whose hands it is in.
A stick in my hands can fend of animals.
A stick in Moses' hands can split the seas.
Depending on whose hands it is in.
A slingshot in my hands is a child's toy.
A slingshot in David's hands is a deadly weapon.
Depending on whose hands it is in.
Five loaves of bread and two fishes in my hands is a small meal.
Five loaves of bread and two fishes in Jesus' hands can feed the multitudes.
Depending on whose hands it is in.
Iron Nails in my hands are a carpenter's tools.
Iron Nails in Jesus Christ's hands brings salvation to the whole world.
Depending on whose hands it is in.
Love,
d,
12:00:00 AM
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
This has yet been the best week of this year, 2008! There are so many things that I want to give thanks about. God is indeed faithful even when I am faithless. Easter was a bang for me in my life, having yet another good friend of mine to re-dedicate her life back to God, I am indeed overwhelmed. God has been teaching me to rely on His timing and as I rely, I realized there's a reason behind all His doing, though I may not understand, but I chose to see and believe that all good things happen to those whose eyes are upon God.
For every strips that was given upon Jesus, my heart sank. I can't imagine the physical pain my God, my Love had gone through. How He was nailed upon that cross for me and my sins. How He could have chosen forgiveness when those people were the ones that bring Him to such agony and pain. I just can't explain but to realize I serve a great and LIVING God today. My heart cries out for more of Him. Anyway, God renewed the passion once again, He brought me back to the understanding of why I love Him. I just love Jesus.
A different birthday for a strong and independent girl of mine. I recalled how we grew up together, how closed was I to her and family, taking all her family members as though they are mine. We had gone through tough patches in our friendship but till today, we are still as one. So many things had happened throughout the years, some of which we hope it didn't. It was unbearable for my precious one yet when I saw through her eyes, I know she is so much stronger than I think she was.
We waited for the clock to reach 12am, willing to be there to welcome her birthday with her, yet ironically, I didn't wish her the first moment because I want to be the last. Anyway, while we welcomed the day, she shared so much about her past. Those of which I don't even know, I felt so shameful to be even called her "BaoBei" that when she gone through such "SHIT", I was simply enjoying my secondary school life. I was hidden in the dark. I felt so bad. Yet through her sharing, I felt so proud of her, her courage to share make me realized my girl had grown up. As she shared, my heart cried; the pain in my heart. For a moment, I was taken a step back to understand she is indeed so important to me.
I wished I could cry, but I endured within my heart. The day passed by with something missing. I just could feel it and to even foresee those controlled tears in her eyes. I want to cry too but we endured. It was a joyous birthday, but behind every actions, there are plenty of reasons. I am so honored to have the chance to be there for her at the last hour of her birthday.
The moment we were there at the playground and as she starts to share, tears already filled up my eyes. As she asked me questions of which I have no idea how to answer, I was shaken too. I feel for her, yet I have no idea how much more can I do for her. Well, at least I cry with her. I don't know why she chose me above others to spend the time with her and her beloved one, but I am really thankful she gave me that chance. I miss her beloved one too. We both cried, we both laughed.
Though I can't say anything to fight for my King, He still showed Himself faithful to her. The smile on the clouds, the glow on the moon and the clear blue sky are signs and wonders we believe that her beloved is in Heaven happily with my Lord Jesus. We left the playground being assured and contented and I was the last to wish her Happy Birthday.
BaoBei
My heart hurts so badly upon hearing all that you have had gone through and I wasn't even aware of. I feel so sorry and lousy to be your friend. Beobei, yet through the words that you used by the courage you have, I really admire you. You are simply awesome. I can't stop telling myself you have really grown so much and I am proud of you. I don't know what more to tell you than I am proud of you, I am happy for you. I am in loved with you -muhaha-
I am "xin fu".
Love,
d
1:20:00 PM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Give thanks! I am thankful not because of the good things that happened but thankful I have a faithful God.
Upon waiting for my results last night, I was a little fearful and worried. The last semester in NYP was the toughest and most challenging time throughout my education life. Many things happened through that last 4 months in school. I was very sick with regards to my heart problem and was down with a week of HIGH fever and having to deal with some emotional problems and not forgetting those moments when my computers failed me.
Yet those moments, God kept reminding me to hold onto Him and to trust Him. I know through all those moments, the peace of God was like a gashing river flowing in me and I feared nothing. I just allow God to do all He desired in me and follow through and obedience is so much better than sacrifice. Though I did not get fantastic results of which I wish, I am super thankful of my results. I passed all my modules.
Above all, I just want to give thanks for His faithfulness in my life. After all that I have had gone through, God still shows His favor in my life.
Thank You Jesus.
d.
2:47:00 PM
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
When
pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom. -Proverbs 11:12-
Recently the thoughts of pride really brings me to "HATE" people. I do know that as human beings we love to be first, the best in everything we are good in and show the world what we can. We can certainty prove our capability, but don't overdo it. (I'm sorry if this post has to be directed to you!)
Last week's sermon by Pastor Phil really opened my eyes, it is just the word for the season. I was so refreshed and anointed knowing what and why things have had happened the way they did. I know I can please no man, yet many times I find myself struggling not to please them but to make them feel "good".
You know, I hate people who said I am "holy", "spiritual", "capable", "independent", etc.. I really hate it, especially if a boy were to tell me that. What makes it worst if they conclude the sentence by saying, "Thank God I'm not your boyfriend!" Friends, out there! This may mean nothing to you, but it goes to show how much pride you store in yourself. To comfort myself, I thank God you were never in my list of "potential prince".
Being holy, I guess it just comes from the heart of obedience, and the fear of the Lord. I am holy THEN, is because I love God.
Being spiritual, I don't know how to explain this, because I can't define your meaning of being spiritual.
Being capable, I am not sure how man can ever draw the conclusion of me being capable where capability is not proven but shown.
Being independent, I guess I am. I am brought up in environment where I am taught to be one and I am glad I am, not depending on people around. I read an article recently where it talks about independent man and woman under the same roof. It shares about how this humble man concluded that he is just so happy to have a wife who is as capable as he is. Though there will be times where both parties want their way, but is about compromising and dealing to get the best solution out of it. He even said that if could be pressurizing to have a woman who is better but yet it gives him a chance to learn and to be a better man.
This is what humility is all about. God said in His word that woman ought to be submissive, but not woman can't be capable. Who is to judge that capable women will not be submissive women? You must be thinking, capable women would have their own ideas and would love to get things the way they want! Well, it is TRUE but let me say again, who will want to disobey the Holy Word of God? Submissive is not less capability, neither will capability leads to not being submissive.
I know myself best apart from God knowing me, I know I will submit even if I am capable or independent or anything people said! I may look tough on the outside but I am soft in the inside. I know when to make my man feels the best he can and when to allow his ego to run.
God comforted me on this issue. He knows I am badly affected by it, even when I am truly anointed for a higher call in this season of my life. I know I am called to grow and get rooted once again in where I am. God's favor and anointed is flowing in all the direction I am going. :) The price of obedience. God convince my heart yesterday. He said, "I am rising up women for My kingdom through this generation and if my men would still have the mentality of women can't be as capable as I have them the way they are, they are losing out." When I heard this, I know I am called for His kingdom. God is real even till today. He speaks. God isn't saying that guys will lose out in life, or the price towards His Kingdom as steward but rather if you continue to have a mind of pride, you will stumble.
It is so true that if we think we are the best, someone could have been better, but if you think you are the worst, there maybe someone worst, but if you are humble, you know you are the best of what you can be.
Women have the power when God's authority is upon their lives to do the will of His.I understood that I am in a season of trusting God, obeying God and waiting upon God in everything in my life. I am giving myself faith to lean upon His strength. I believe a great young man of God will come into my life one of these days, and take me by his side. God's timing, not ours. A time will come, but in HIS TIME.
I believe these words that bring the smile to my face.
True femininity is shown by her man's masculinity
Yet true masculinity is portrayed by his own humility - Daphne with God's wisdom :P
Love,
d.
11:45:00 AM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Alright, I know I have been neglecting my blog for the past few days, and I do miss blogging. Anyway, I have been really tired due to work. I am currently working in Trumpet Praise either in Junction 8 (Bishan) or Plaza Singapura. (Visit me if you want) By the way, Trumpet Praise is a Christian store where it sells things likes books, CDs, gifts, and etc. Working in retail line really makes me learn so much about humbling myself. I want to be the first and not the last yet I need to have a teachable spirit to be the first! I thank God for this job and not forgetting His favor that's on me with my colleagues and boss.
Money is important, I can't and I won't deny it but after 3 days of working and interacting with people, I guess passion leads one further. My pay in Trumpet Praise is not as fantastic as what many would expect, yet I'm fine. Yeah, I do need the money but I love to meet the needs. One of my best friend, she mentioned to me, as long as I love what I am doing, I will survive in where I am, no matter how much the company can pay me! How true this is. I get to hear the latest CDs, check out which is the latest Christian books and get to interact with customers from different churches or even a pre-believers! I get to do what I really LOVED. How blessed can I be, and how much do I have to ask?
My first bike ride on 9 March 2008.
My first time donating blood on 15 March 2008.
I am blessed by the sermon today. Pastor Phil is really awesome. I have accepted Jesus now I am accepting Daphne! I am who I am, the PRECIOUS child of God. Trials and problems won't last forever. Whenever we faced a situation in life, God has anointed us for it, knowing we can overcome with Him. Trial is God complementing us, believe it or not!
Pastor shared a story that melts my heart. I hope I can write out the skeleton (body) of what he had shared with us today. (I may have added salts and sugar to the story)
There was this young woman in his church many years ago who is like many young ladies within our midst. She faced a problem with relationship. Her guy left her after "God knows why reasons". She was devastated; broken. Yet in all circumstances, she looked upon God. Every Sunday, she will lift up her hands to surrender,cry and give it back to God. Guess what! God anoints her. She was lifted up by God and today, she is one of the Pastoral staff in his church, becoming the most beautiful lady; woman of God Pastor Phil has ever met. Pastor Phil said something that hits me, he said she is paying her price even till today! Yet we see that as much as we are paying the price, we can choose to still honor the God Almighty.
-It speaks so much of my life now and I think the story just allow others to understand why I had "risen"! Let my actions speak louder as I continue to trust.-
God would not put us into something of which He knows we can't overcome, yet He gave us something knowing we can as He anoints us with more. God doesn't just meet our needs, He took care of our wants and He multiply till it overflow.
"Who said Christian walk was easy?"
Indeed, I have to believe that Christian walk is one of the toughest, but yet again, above all challenges, I found the purpose of victory! We can't make a difference until and unless we know we are uniquely different. What we act on, we strengthened. Not only do we have to just know the word of God through tough times, but we need to work and act on the living word of God in our lives.
Head knowledge everyone or anyone can owned even Satan, just study the bible and you will know it, but what makes us different will be, to know it and work with it. We are called to a higher calling, anointing in moments like these, stop standing there and watch! Get yourself and move on. There is a higher grace for you to go through your pain today, but are you believing it?
I have found my calling, my purpose in life, have you?
I have found my power and strength!
The reason behind everything I am doing.
May you find victory in your pain,
Daphne_Chloe
*photos and everything shall be posted when I have the time*
12:00:00 AM
Monday, March 10, 2008
I have this fear.
Should I call it a fear?
Whenever I am in a car that exceeds the speed of 90Km/Hr, my heart would always feel unease. For those who drove me before, you certainly know; especially K.Quek. Then again, many times I only have the chance to sit back and hold my fear onto myself until the destination.
Yesterday, I got my very first experience on a bike. It was amazing. Having those winds that splashed against your flesh, the coolness in the open, the feeling of flying; the best solution to forget a pain temporary. (If I am sad, I know I will go for a motor ride) It was really thrilling. It was scary too. Imagine, I feared when someone drove about 90Km/Hr in a CAR, where I am so well protected, yesterday I had the fearful experience of 90Km/Hr on a BIKE. My heart nearly popped out.
Nevertheless, no complains. It was such a memorable first time. It makes me wanna get a bike license myself. -if I can convince my parents.- Anyway, thanks for the ride.
Many thoughts ran through my mind recently and I think I really did think too much, but then again, how could I not, when mouths are moving so much faster. Seriously, I am sick of all these rubbish when all people could do was to judge before understanding the reason behind every action done. Call me anything you like, for one day will come, the Judge will come and I chose to believe He will come to judge me and you. Whatever it is, I chose to apply what I had learnt in children ministry when I was younger.
Don't say something that isn't nice
Better listen to this advise
When your mouth is making fun
You can really hurt someone
So keep your lips together and
SSSSHHHHH
Once again, I am so helpless. I saw it yet I can't do anything. Maybe it is just not the time for me to even do anything, just feel helpless and sad. Troubles shared will eventually become half-trouble and blessings shared will become double blessings. If we don't, it is still a whole as what it is. God, I want to do something. I want. Helpless.
TOUGH - Thoughts Of Using God's Help
I shared this with many, but yet it is so tough to get in rooted in my life through moment like this.
Hopeless,
Daphne_Chloe
4:30:00 PM
Sunday, March 09, 2008
I am sorry to this special new friend. Sorry. I really just dislike the fact that people say I am HOLY. I mean talk about HOLINESS, who can compare to Him. I don't even think I am holy. My bible knowledges are little for I don't really memories verses like many do. I drag myself to pray at times. I mean I am not HOLY. I AM NOT. All that I am doing unto my God is because of this genuine love that I have for Someone. I do so because I want to, not because I have and certainly not to entertain people who can call me HOLY.
Anyway, I'm enjoying myself so much recently. No words to describe those peace and joy in life, seeing one by one of my friends being saved and certainly how I could them enjoying coming to church with me. I love my church, I love my home, I love my extended family. I love. Greatest of all is love. Thank You, my Love.
The pondering session of a definition of Friend.
At times I was really thinking how bad a friend I have been and how little knowledge and skills I know about being a friend. I saw so many people and I owned so many friends with whom are so great to me that I feel so blissful and honored. Many a time, I wished I could be like them but yet again, I saw the flaws and understood no one is PERFECT. We are given the talents to be who we are BEST not to be who someone else is.
I found my answer of what friend is. GREATER LOVE HAS NO ONE THAN THIS, THAN TO LAY DOWN ONE'S LIFE FOR HIS FRIENDS. I know I may not be perfect or even the best friend anyone can have, but I know I have love to love a friend, a stranger. I have love to treasure and give my best the others. Yet above all these love, I know I have to bite the bullet for them.
I have a Friend in Jesus,
He's ever walking near
To share my every burden
And take away my fear.
It's in His precious name I pray
To our God above;
It's through His sacred teachings that
I learned the way to love.
God did not put me on this earth
To walk life's path alone;
He sent His Son to be my Guide,
The dearest Friend I've known.
No other One could be so true,
He bore the cross for me;
Because He died for my sins
I must ever faithful be.
If you are lonely on life's way
And feel that no one cares,
You have a Friend in Jesus
If you will kneel in prayer.
Poet, Kay Hoffman
3:15:00 PM
Friday, March 07, 2008
I really understood how God can bless us. His blessings come in many forms, but until and unless you are sensitive and contented, you will never know those are actually blessings. I was right, that if I were to just focus blessings as money, I realized I may have had lost so much more than what money can buy.
This is what I mean; poems and words of encouragements which nothing can ever be purchased for, it is from the wisdom of the Most High. God is great and I sincerely hope that these will push you a little for the kingdom and purpose of God in your life.
No, that trauma you faced was not easy
And God wept that it hurt you so
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that in His likeness you' grow.
Silent Cry & Forbidden Tears
A heart that pleads for REVIVAL
A mind that asks for PEACE
A soul that seeks for REST
A body that looks for CHRIST
Emptiness, no one can fill
Loneliness, no one can replace
Happiness, no one can give
Excellence, no one can beat
Silent cry, Forbidden tears
Silent love, Forbidden having
Tears flow,
Daphne_Chloe
1:41:00 PM
If my people, who are called by my name, will
humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
Will this be your cry today?
Talk about harvest, talking about souls. God is asking us today, are we humbling ourselves before Him TODAY to pray and to seek His face?
How many a times are we praying now?
I can't deny there were times when it was just so tough to even close my eyes for a minute to speak in tongue, what more to mention about praying, yet I chose to force it through. The tougher it is, the harder I stretch my strength and faith to. Tell me Satan is not happy, but who cares, because I know Someone out there is happy! He is delighted to hear my voice, to see me seeking Him. There is He, in the presence of my enemies!
I am not trying to be any holy and please I don't want to. I just want to love God and share the blessings that ARE poured our through prayers. NEVER ever underestimate the power of prayers, for it is written, "Ask and it will be given, seek and you will find, knock at the door and surely, it will be opened for you."
Don't try God to prove His glorious riches, for when He does, even your storehouse will not be enough to fill it.
God is saying this to you today, "Until now you have not asked for anything in My name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete."
Will you come before Him these days and pray, humbling yourself, knowing that all that you have comes from Him alone. Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.
Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed than to share plunder with the proud.
Humility is the key. You want this land. You want to be the Harvester. Start praying.
-Total disappointment about how people regards prayers these days-
Sign off,
OWNER OF THIS BLOG :P
11:45:00 AM
Thursday, March 06, 2008
A simple letter that brings me to tears. A letter from above. How much more can we expect and ask for. -read on to understand how much my Jesus loves you-
A letter to my beloved
I am writing this to you today just to let you know how much I love you.Just the very thought of you stirs my heart. The sound of your voice is like sweet music to my ears and causes me to stop dead in my tracts and just listen to you. When your eyes glance my way full of love and devotion, I am completely undone. No matter what is going on in the world, your eyes of love capture my full attention - for you have captured my heart and I am yours.
I wait patiently for you, listening for the sounds of your footsteps as you come to me but many times there is silence.Have you forgotten about our time together?Are you too busy?Can we reschedule?Oh, how I long for you. Oh, how I treasure every minute with you. Time with you and you alone is more precious to me than anything else this world has to offer - for I am yours and you are mine.Let me woo you again and draw you close.
Your beloved,Jesus
My beloved girl loves this song, "Come to the Father". I remembered when I started praying for her in the beginning of February, God gave me this song as I prayed too. How true will these be, that broken hearts, broken lives, He will take them ALL. I can't explain any further how much is the Father's love for us, than to share with you, that upon loving you, He went to the cross, stretch out His hands and give up His life.
Would you write a letter back to Jesus the way He had?
His Instrument,
Daphne_Chloe
11:02:00 AM
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Forgiveness Is For The UndeservingSo if someone has wronged you, say this: “I did not deserve God’s forgiveness, but God forgave me through Christ. So I forgive this person also in Jesus’ name.” If you say something like, “He does not deserve it,” it makes no sense. Forgiveness is not for people who deserve it. If they deserve something, then it is punishment. No, forgiveness means that you extend grace. Grace means undeserved favour, like how God extends undeserved favour to you.
If you choose to hold on to bitterness, no one suffers but you. You lose your peace, health and sometimes even your life. It is not worth it! God says to you, “Let go. Forgive them their debts, just as I have forgiven you yours.” Don’t try to do it on your own. Bring the cross of Christ into the situation and you will find the grace to forgive!
Indeed, we should all let God does what He wants us to do. There is no point heading a life which you think is best for you and realized it leads to destructions. :) I thank God for the reconciled friendship, though it is so much different to begin with, but still I thank you for trying. K, it is so much a joy to see our friendship sailing smoothly again.
A happy and contented Child
Daphne_Chloe
2:48:00 PM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
I had a very long chat with one my friend and I guess after sharing my feelings out, I feel so much better. I can't deny the fact I was still affected by what had happened. How true is it that it is so much better to have love it once and lost it, than to have it and never love it at all. I realized so much after a chat with him that God is a great God. He won't allow us to go through what we can't handle, but yet allow us to go through all situations knowing we can trust Him in everything. Splendid. This is simply awesome. Thank God for friends, for favor in man. The road ahead of me is indeed lovely, if I keep my eyes on Jesus. :)
Anyway, something to share. Alphabet! The Holy Alphabet. Be blessed.
A lthough things are not perfect B ecause of trial or pain C ontinue in thanksgiving D o not begin to blame E ven when the times are hard F ierce winds are bound to blow G od is forever able H old on to what you know I magine life without His love J oy would cease to be K eep thanking Him for all the things L ove imparts to thee M ove out of "Camp Complaining" N o weapon that is known O n earth can yield the power P raise can do alone Q uit looking at the future R edeem the time at hand S tart every day with worship T o "thank" is a command U ntil we see Him coming V ictorious in the sky W e'll run the race with gratitude X alting God most high Y es, there'll be good times and yes some will be bad, but... Z ion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!
Love,
Daphne_Chloe
7:46:00 PM
Monday, March 03, 2008
Are we trusting and believing in our God today?
Are we moving with our God today in a SUPERNATURAL way?
I am not sure about you, but I know my CG (N318 & N327) and I, WE ARE!
I remembered God gave me a vision of 120 people in this 2 cell groups by the end of the year in the beginning of the year. It sound so redundant to me, especially so when I'm still so new towards the cell group and towards the church. It was just like a number to me. I am not sure how it will come to pass. I am not sure if even it will come to pass. Well, I believe is from God when I mentioned and shared it with my cell group leader..
To many, it sound ridiculous. 120 members for a cell group! Well, do you know then you worship a God that our little mind cannot hold. His glory, His grace, His purpose, His blessings, HIS EVERYTHING are what we will never be able to comprehend, but yet God wants us to BELIEVE, He is an able God. He can do everything for those who loves Him. Have a heart that seek the kingdom of God and you will have a life that's honoring and fun.
Supernaturally. We are indeed moving supernaturally. Let us do our mathematics. If supernaturally, we were to hit 120 by year end, it means we will be hitting 60 in June. Guess what, when we pray! God's hands moved. We hit more than 60 in the FIRST WEEK of March. I am so proud of my Cell Group friends.
I should let pictures speak for itself.
(Christmas 2007)
(this photo is taken during Chinese New Year - February)
(First week of March)
(The smile on our face! - God is faithful)
Do you see the needs our unsaved friends today!
Don't push to hit the numbers, push to touch the soul.
PUSH - Pray Until Something Happens!
Come, seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, and all these will be added unto you!
God's promises never fail.
Pray.
PUSH,
Daphne_Chloe
11:58:00 AM
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Awesome. Awesome. Awesome.
Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hallelujah.
Indeed, many setbacks can lead us out of the realm of God, to the space of darkness, but when we chose to cling unto the promises of God, the unstable road will be a path of righteous and light. This is just so real, no eyes have seen, nor ears have heard, what the Lord can do. He knows the best and for His love for us, He will do anything and everything for us according to His plans.
I just can't deny how prayers work wonders in my life these days. One thing I can't live without today, it will be prayer; but get me right. I am a mere human too. There will be days when I am lazy, tired, reluctantly to even pray, yet those moments when I pray, I know the peace and faith within me is rising even higher. It wasn't easy for me to give up a little of my rest to pray, a little of my relaxing time to pray. IT WASN'T EASY but I chose to do it. I guess I love to do what's tough and different from others.
I heard so much testimonies about the wonders of prayers and I could testify it myself too, but what's more inspiring will always be how God blessed us through our prayers. Not only am I assured of the promises of God that He listens and whatever I asked, I have already received it, I truly know the fact that God multiply the time we spent with Him. Others may think I am wasting my time to just pray and seek the face of my Abba Father, but I think this is yet the most precious time of my daily life.
On Wednesday, God told me to worry not. I know I have been thinking a lot about my Bible School. I was afraid I can't get in because I can't clear the interview. I was afraid I can't get a decent part time job if I am studying in SOT. I really worried. I feared. Don't ask where is my faith. When I was prompted to worry NOT, God gives me so many of His promises. It just came to my mind one by one. "Cast all you cares upon me, for I care about you." "Do not be anxious about anything but in everything with prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God."
Since then, I know I just have to surrender. I just have to believe that whatever God has start to do in me, it will be come to pass and it will be done well in His time. I trust my all to Him again.
Thursday, a day I loved. Firstly because I can meet up with some of my cell group friends and of course I love to go to powerhouse. I have no idea why, but it seems as if times either stops or it runs. It seems to stop for me when I pray yet time seems to be in my history book before I could interact with it. No complains!
I learnt an important lesson from my cell group leader. Living sacrifice. God wants us and had chosen us to be a LIVING sacrifice; not a DEAD one. He gave us choices to either be at the altar; living as a living sacrifice or out of the altar and not be a sacrifice. (Romans 12:1) It makes me ponder. I want to be a LIVING SACRIFICE for my God. I want to serve Him the way He would intend for me. I want to obey!
This is the song that lingered in me while I was praying. For this song, it ministered so much to me into my heart.
Jesus, we enthrone You (I have You FIRST)
We proclaim You are King (You are MINE; King, Lord, Saviour)
Standing here in the midst of us (Within me, I found You there for me)
We raise You up with our praise (I give You all)
And as we worship build Your throne (I surrender; I'll do)
And as we worship build Your throne (I'll do; I'll live)
And as we worship build Your throne (I'll live; I'll worship)
Come Lord Jesus and take Your place (My life is Yours)
This is a moment I have waited for, so long. Revival. Visions. It brings me back to the past of where I used to be once, now I maybe there on the same path but with a stronger and better foundation with God. The presence of God just overwhelmed the house the moment we gathered together to worship. I just can't explain in words what's the exact feeling. Cell group has once again been the best place I can live in.
The tears of joy.
The smile of peace.
The heart to yearn.
The atmosphere to dwell.
The presence that sinks.
The love that desired.
The power that lift.
The Spirit that overwhelmed.
A vision was poured unto me. A new direction and assurance was lavished. The peace was assured within me once again. "Ahead of me was a journey, a path with lights shinning at the end of the day. There will be temptations along this road that will shift my focus away from my destiny, yet I ought to stay focus." It touches my heart. You know even when there were no tears from my eyes, there were buckets of tears in my heart. I know I need to make such a decision to follow God and to walk in the path of righteousness. The purpose is revealed!
A different service! A brand new start of the month. A great new start. I know the past 2 months of me transiting over wasn't easy especially when so many errors and mistakes had to be made to make me realized I am actually weak and prone to errors. I know no matter what I have had done wrong, God still loves me; nothing less. Yet God is so faithful to me. He is so real to me. I have nothing to give or to offer than a heart, a heart that longs for Him, a heart that desires Him and a heart that love Him. He poured Himself so free unto me, I am thankful.
I stood up for the altar call. You know what, I can't remember when was the last time I ever went down for altar call. When was the last time I cried out to God so freely. I simply can't remember. Yet today, I was granted that chance again. The liberty to worship, to sing, to love and certainly to be who I am before God. I made a choice to go to Bible School to get myself train, to preach the gospel to the lost. I want to see the purpose and walk in the purpose that God has for me. A life without the direction of God is simply leading a blind life. I only have one life to live, I can't afford to do wrong, can't afford to waste my time.
The spirit of God held me so tight that I was trembling so badly. My legs are so weak that I can't even stand properly and my hands are shaking like mad, with all that I know I was praying and engaging myself in my spirit towards God. I know God is giving and adding some values into my life. Indeed I have nothing before God and all I have within me now, is given by Him. I am so loved by God and I love God so much that I know I will serve Him all the days of my life. -Pray with me on the ministries that I should be in-
This is just the song that brings my heart to tears, my life that's so broken and mend by Him alone. I have nothing more nor less to give, than this; MY LIFE.
One life; I lay it at Your altar
One Love; I have with You
Touch me again
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands
One Word; You know I will follow
One Heart; Broken to You
Used me again
Your mercies follow on
For all my days
Thank God for everything and for that I guess my life is indeed so much changed. My life is speaking so loudly about the love of my God. He is so real. I cannot resist it. I love Jesus. God saved another friend of mine yesterday. I am praying now that they will get themselves rooted in the word of God, in the church of God and certainly in the mini family of God (Cell group).
A new week. Is going to be a better week. God has it all planned for me, do you have God too?
Readers, if you want to come and experienced what I am, do tagged on my blog and allow me to be the servant of God to welcome you. God doesn't love me a little more than He does on You. He loves us equally; differently. Come, CHC welcomes you, so do N318 & N327.
Anointing will rest upon you, steps of faith
Daphne_Chloe
12:02:00 AM
Saturday, March 01, 2008
There is so much I want to blog yet I have no time. I need to sleep early because I am required to wake up early tomorrow. Anyway, I will update again what I'm working. :) Stay tuned!
I just want to thank God for revealing His revelation unto me again, that when I am so weak, God just showed me His faithfulness. I thank God.
To all my love ones:
When you SACRIFICE, God MULTIPLIES.
May this sentence just speaks for itself into your life today.
Good night and rest well my soul.
Cry & Sleep,
Daphne_Chloe
12:53:00 AM
