Friday, May 30, 2003
after a talk to say what is inside me, i realised i feel better... i thanks that person for spending his precious time on me... thanks... i didn't really tell him what is really inside and bothering me but somehow he managed to force me out to say something... thanks... i told him some of the things that are bothering and his advise for me was look on the positive side of life.... is often better to look on the positive side but sometimes is rather difficult... but i really to learn to look on positive side... hee....
somethings that he say today, i believe will be with me forever....
IF YOU WANT PEOPLE TO CHANGE THE PERSPECTIVE ON YOU, FIRSTLY CHANGE YOURSELF...
maybe because of this, i sudden realised that i expect too much from many people... and often they let me down and make me feel sad... i believe that's one of the reasons.... thanks...
i believe i could see rainbow now...after a long time of raining...
thanks...
5:29:00 PM
Wednesday, May 28, 2003
why when people are mend to put together, they often can't get along...
i am really sick and tired of them keep quarrelling...
over small little things...
haiz...
pls, don't quarrel, peace and harmony, is it so difficult to have....
tears are what on my eyes again...
haiz...
the earth keep going but my life suddenly stops....
6:53:00 PM
people around can teach me how to solve the problems that i have???
please... problems seem to stop but i dunnoe how to solve those that had happned... tell em what should i do....
haiz... whenever i'm alone, i realised that somehow, tears will flow out of my eyes though i struggle it hard not to, but i can't... haiz...so sad....
teach me to put on a smile on my face again.... but not a long face that is not nice to let people see... teach me....
3:39:00 PM
Sunday, May 25, 2003
wow, the feeling of going back to where i belong is so good... to know how much i have not done... and knowing that neglecting God is so so wrong.... Forgive me Lord as Your will... Lord this is what i pray.... thank you Lord... give me more things to do so i can know Your will that's doing in me... Lord i pray used me as Your will... Burdens is all that i ask... Forgive me Lord... i need You more than anyone, and i love You more than i realised... come into me... Amen...
Thank you CNL, YNL for allowing me to know that God is so Powerful... Thank..
Thank.. All the prayer that you guys had prayed for me, God heard it and He is working in me... Thank everyone...
6:34:00 PM
Saturday, May 24, 2003
To my Friends
sorry for this time, but i really want to be alone... thank.. sorry...
to my Family
i love you all more than i love anyone, but yet you people hurt me more than anyone, please stop it, i almost can't take it anymore, my heart is really really pain.... please stop is all that i ask.... thank love you all now and forever....
to my church sisters and brothers
thank for always being there even at my darkest time, praying for me, thank you everyone, i believe with the help of God, i can stand strong again... with my smiles on my face again... thank you everyone for your continuous prayer, God is working in me... thank once again
to all my teacher
forgive me, i know that i will not be able to score well this time, sorry but when i'm better, i promise i will work that extra mile for myself and make you guys proud... forgive me for this time... all that i need now is time to heal myself... thank you...
to those who care for me when i'm down
thank you, though i never tell you people what have gone wrong in my life but your presence had somehow allow me to feel better... thanks... thanks for being there... all that i can say, thank you... hope that u guys will appreciate... thank once again.... love you people too.... sorry too that sometimes i ignored you guys, sorry, because all that i want is to be alone.... thank you and sorry...
to everyone
don't follow my footsteps, when problems come, faced the reality, don't run away... because running away is the thing you can ever done when problems come... smile more and life is really beautiful... reach out for to those things that you can't and you will realise that there actually there are a lot of things you can do... remember faced the reality....
4:10:00 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
A period of time passes by,
the little gifts you used to get don’t
come as frequently.
The closeness we once shared seems to
be slipping away.
There are times we can’t communicate,
and times we can’t be together.
For all the troubles we encounter,
I will never forsake you.
For all the times I stumble and fall,
I take for granted you will be there for me.
2:29:00 PM
i really really very sick of all the things that happening around me.... how i wish this won't happened.. though i need not happened to me, but things happened to those whom i truly love... why is it so???
why things don't happened to me alone, why??? tell me why??? i hate to see those whom i love gey hurt, is really very painful in my heart....
haizz... ppl say bcoz i accepted God and my family don't, that's why the evil is unhappy but is it true??
i believe that God have alot of better plans for me... so pls God tell me what are the real reasons that You are doing this... God i really wish to know... i really can't stand this anymore.. though i know You either carry me through or teach me the way to solve it.. i thank you Lord but can i pray that Lord give me more time to heal myself... thank you Lord....
Forgive me Lord when i neglect You but i'm running away not anything else, coz i haven learn the way to faced the reality when problems come.... Teach me Lord to stay close with You Lord, i pray sincerely, guide me as Your will....Amen!!
1:26:00 PM
Monday, May 19, 2003
pls everyone around me, let me be alone for this time being....
pls pls... is all that i ask....
quiet and peace....
thank
3:11:00 PM
Friday, May 16, 2003
dear friends,
if anyone of you people out there faced that any problems with friends, please pray with me in this prayer...
Father, i thank You for all of my friends and classmates. I believe that You are able to do exceeding abundantly above all that i ask or think, so i am believing for some outstanding relationship in my life...
I pray for the friends You have already blessed me with. Help us to be faithful in our relationships with each other, and to be trustworthy with the secrets we share. Help us to be loving toward each other at all times, even when we may disappoint each other. Help us challenge each other in our walk with You so that we develop in character and sharpen each other as iron sharpens iron. Grant us times of heart-to-heart talks and times when we can encourage one another. Help us to love each other as You have loved us, and to be sensitive to one another, laying down our own lives and being unselfish by taking the time to pray for one another. May our hearts be strengthened as they are knit together in Your love.
Father, please help my friends to live their lives as You want them to so that they will always please You. Open the eyes of their understanding that the spirit of wisdom and revelation will be upon them so they can see that You are able to do exceeding abundantly above all that they ask or think. I ask You to bles them and touch everything they do so that it is successful and prosperous. thank You for helping them to have great family relationships. Help them to find favor with You, with their teachers and with all other people....
I thank You that they can see the light of Jesus and the salvation that He brings. Thank You for giving them undeserved favor and spiritual strength and a better understanding of Your Word.I believe that Your angels will watch over and protect them from any harm or evil in the world. Thank You for providing for their every financial need and helping them to always triumph in Jesus..
In Jesus' name i pray, Amen....
9:52:00 PM
A FRIEND IS A TREASURE
A friend is someone we turn to
When our spirits need a lift,
A friend is someone we treasure
For our friendship is a gift,
A friend is someone who fills our lives
With beauty, joy, and grace
And makes the world we live in
A better and happier place.
7:28:00 PM
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
wow, time flies so so fast....
i already taken my advanced exams....
haiz is so difficult....
hopefully the following papers are not difficult as those that i have taken....
6:01:00 PM
hi, my comp is fixed liao...
but now exam times got to study...
after exam i will update more often...
but i'm glad that i can update again....
5:37:00 PM