Friday, January 30, 2009
Wonderful Time Together
After Bible School, I have learn and enjoy my time spend alone with God. I will force myself to set aside an hour in the morning and at night before I sleep with God. There are times when that one hour seems drag, but most of the time, that hour seems pretty short. Anyway, I really love those time when I am with God. No matter how busy or tired I am, I will just do it. I did not do it out of duty that I ought to obey my leader to set an hour aside to pray, but it has now become my joy in doing. Spending time with God is something special, a feeling so different. In any mood and feelings of life, when I enter into the presence of God, I know there's a peace, there's a love that kept flowing. I will often find myself smiling after my prayer. =]
It was until yesterday when I was praying before I head on to my bed. I thank the Lord for the day and like always, I pray for those same situation that's in my life. Then I felt the Lord spoke to me, "My dear, why have you been praying the same thing for so long, haven't I promise you about the situation in life?" I got shocked, why did my God "felt tired" about my prayer, but when the Holy Spirit alerts me, it was not that God is tired, but it is me who have yet believe in God for a miracle and breakthrough. I was remorseful. I felt bad within me, because it that moment, I asked myself how come I can't trust God for a better tomorrow.
I asked the Lord how can I trust Him and His reply was, "Just do what you think you should and I will help you through." It was that sentence that came to me that I know I ought not to live in regret! God is a God who knows the future, He is a God who has the answer for everything. He knows my life, every single detail is in His plan.
As I reflect yesterday and with the conversion I have had with some of the people whom I trust, I came to a decision. I will go and find out the answer and accept the answer. I know even if it is not what I want to hear, I will still want to know, so that I do not guess with my own thinking and make me live in a miserable life. (hahaha)
*I don't know why, within myself I have had a set of answers already! I really have no fear and no pain to know the good answer or even the bad one! I just want to know so that I won't live in regret. Blessed are those who indeed trust in the Lord with all their steps! *
Till then,
d.
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