Happy 8th Anniversary with Dear God
Looking back at the past 8 years of my time and life with God. I am truly amazed by the works that the Lord has done and is still continuing to do. I remembered I accept Jesus as my Savior and Lord in a Healing Rally in Singapore Stadium. It was a pouring bad night. I went down to the altar call not even knowing what I was doing until I came to my "senses" when I was in the Kallang MRT station. The first thought as a 12 years old girl was, how daddy will react to it, knowing my whole entire family is a buddhist or it is taoist.
For the first two months I managed to go to church regularly without daddy suspecting me doing that, until one fine Sunday where he woke up earlier than me and I was questioned. OH NO! My christian life and faith was challenged and that's where my journey of faith in Christ begins. I was banned to go to church for about 6 months after my dad found out. As a young girl who is pretty quiet, I have no idea what to do then to use my just known "mustard seed" and pray. I was challeng and I did give up along that 6 months that God doesn't exist, cause He didn't help me. It was about August after that 6 months, where one of the nights, after completing my homework, I took the courage to talk to mum about going to church and how happy I was with those new-found friends. She seems open to it and after that, knowing that daddy is in his good mood, I then take that full "power" and courage to ask daddy for permission to go to church. "OK" was his reply.
I was overwhelmed but yet I fear cause I don't know what more to expect when I am going back to church. Second week of August till second week of September were just that one month for me to find what's this God that Christian are worshiping. I found Him and with my little knowledge, accept and invite Him once again. That weekend of September, the week where it was my birthday, my church has this seminar and I went with just the heart to learn but little did I expect, a prophesy from this prophet came into my life and my life is fully transformed and changed my God.
The prophecy was/is and will always be :
"You will go to a land where there's full of youth and from there you will lead them in the ways of Christ"
I will remember this all the days of my life because this picture get clearer and clearer as time passes by. I was in that church for about another year or so, where I learnt to read the Word of God, speak better English and gain more confident in who I am in Christ. I get to play the drums and share the opinions of mine, help out in the AV crew and also to lead and play with the children. I have fond memories of where I grew up from and surely the people who were there for me since the start of my faith. Well, God took me out of my comfort zone to a place of influence.
He planted me into my second church which is someone afflicted to my secondary school. Then and there was also the times, where my best friends and I saw the hands of God moved and placed us together and serve Him alone. I went to the church without knowing why I went, just a plain step of faith, because I was not in any organisation like my friends were. I struggle a little at first but I fought on and I blended into the crowd and the church very fast. I grew up the most in this place, because it was small, I was given a lot of opportunity to do a lot of things and try out. God was/is and will always be with me, that period of time were also the toughest time,as I was a school "top" prefect, class chair person, representing school for sports and not forgetting to do well; extremely well for my studies and not to forget my committment to church. All these will never be possible if I were to do it on my own. IT WILL NEVER ACCOMPLISH.
I grew up to know what I am, who I am. I get to serve and really enjoy serving, from the sound system person, carrying equipments, to doing presentation during praise and worship, to serving in Children Church, helping out in Youth Ministry and also in Cell Group. Goodness, those were those crazy times where I give my time all for, and I see myself smiling and say is all worth it. Many miracles happened in my life along the journey where I walked with God, there were many times where I have to really trust and rely on God to the maximum I DON'T KNOW how, but a plain faith to just believe and obey. God will never leave me nor forsake me is what I read and always believe about this God whom I worship.
Well, the verse that keeps me going and going and going even till today is "BE STRONG and COURAGEOUS, FOR I AM WITH YOU". 7th years have passed, has God failed me. NEVER. Has God let me down. NEVER. Has God gave up on me and change His plan in using me. NEVER. I failed God, because I wasn't as faithful as He is. I let God down because I am only human and I do sin against Him. God has always trusted and believe in me doing great and mighty things for Him, but many a time, I failed him because of my own self-esteem and confident. Anyway, cutting the whole long story short, God is indeed faithful.
As I did what I could as God has called me to be, it was time for me to rise up for a greater and higher call. Once again, He took me out of my comfort zone to where He wants me to be. I came to my current church, with even more fear and doubts, but with greater confident too, for I believe if my God can do it for me once, He can do it for me twice, He can do it for me the THIRD time. True enough, my transition period into the church was really great. I met good people who helped and guided me. I am just so thankful.
Zooming into this year, many things happened that I was tested to prove my love and stand in God and for God. I was really thrilled and super worried as they came, cause I NEVER believe I can even overcome. It came, and not over did I overcome, I walked and passed the test VICTORIOUSLY. *get hold of me to tell you my life story of 2008* I am truly blessed by God in 2008. There are so many good and happening things that happened and caught me just right there to know if it is not God, it won't happen. It has to be God.
As I enter into the new year with the Lord, I am so excited, because it is a new year of breakthroughs and more breakthroughs. I took a night out before my 8th anniversary to think and pray about what it will be like in this year to come. I heard God spoke to me " Fun, Challenging, Daring and Engaging" I believe my new year will be fun, will certainly be more challenging as I am moving on from glory to glory with Him and a full life to dare to try and to dare to believe with God all things are possible and an engaging prospect to touch the community and the world.
Praise the Lord. I mean with such a vision, this is what I need for the next year(phrase) of my life. I will continue to pray about it and hear more from God about this vision that He has given me. I am just so thankful. 2009 will indeed be the best year to come.
A vision for 2009
Fun, Challenging, Daring and Engaging
A song to encourage me to lead me on in 2009.
Pre-Chorus :
Unafraid what’s ahead
You are always there before
My whole world your desire
You are always there
Just right behind
Chorus :
My life is your song
To you my heart belongs
Let all earthly crowns
Fade in the shadow of your cross
My life is your song
I’ll sing for you alone
Nothing in this world
Can take me away from you
Our love goes on and on
Bridge
In all my life be glorified
With Christ in me
No longer I
So take my all
Consuming fire
Your light in me I’ll make it shine
I am just so WOW. I am a happy child now, so many things are happening in my life and I mean I don't lead a dull boring life. It is so challenging and I am so going to believe I am ending 2008 well and welcoming 2009 greater.
Happy 8th Anniversary with my DEAR of my DEAR
I love You Jesus.
I love You Jesus
I GROW UP K-N-O-W-I-N-G You
I love You Jesus
I GROW UP S-E-R-V-I-N-G You
I love You Jesus
My life is saved by You
I'll NEVER forget
NEVER forget
GROW UP L-O-V-I-N-G You
This is just a chorus of a song that speaks so much. I mean even if I am 50 years old celebarting my XX anniversary with the Lord, I will still sing this song, because I know every year, I grow up to know more about Him, every year, I grow up to serve, and every year, it came so real that my life is saved by Christ that my life is no longer mine and surely, every year will be a year, I grow up to LOVE Him MORE.
*I can go on and on talking about God - will stop here for a while*
Love,
Daphne_Chloe
14 Decemeber 2000 - 14 December 2008
[with many 14 December to come]
*I will fight to overcome this area of my life.*
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