Monday, November 03, 2008
Though none go with me, I still will follow
I remembered how I was challenged throughout the year by the Lord about my love for Him. I never underestimate my love for Him until this year where my love was being tested; it went through tears, it went through pain, it went through joy and it went through love. 11 months later, I dare to shout I love God today more than I had yesterday, I love God today more than I had last year. =]
My God is faithful; All these testings of life and love have never shortchanged me, rather it builds me up to be even stronger than I have had thought I could. I know today, even when my world can be in the worst of itself, I will still praise and love God for He allows situations and problems in life to strengthen me. *Praise the Lord*
Today is the start of the morning Prayer meeting once again. I am indeed so excited, because I was truly blessed during my times in SOT when we have had such events as well. I do struggled with the fact that I have to wake up early (5am is EARLY) and to travel down to one of the location (in today context, Heart of God Church in Paya Labar). I fight against my flesh of laziness this morning because I'm really tired, and I fight against my confident level and esteem because I have to go to the place where none of my closed friends are going. I was tested to by God when I was still lazing on my bed, "Do you love me?" At the back of my mind, "yes Lord, I love You, but can I don't go?" -HAHAHA- The Lord just asked again, "Do you love me?" I woke up and say, "Lord, I don't just love You, I yearn for You." Immediately faith arise and strength came. Everything was alright and I prepared myself just for it.
Along my journey there, I was thinking at the back of my heart, will there be lots of Singaporean who will wake up early in the morning to just go for prayer meeting? Well, I was in suspense and I didn't dwell in it for too long as I just want to spend the time in the bus to read my bible - Romans. As I reach Singapore Post, to the shock of my life, there was a long queue, not for anything that's free, but to queue to enter the lift to go to Heart of God church and PRAY. I was overwhelmed by the fact, I was amazed by the love people around me who truly love God.
The tangile presence of the Lord is so strong in the hall. As I start to pray, I saw myself tear before the Lord. The tears of Joy, the tears of Freedom, the tears of Liberty, the tears for my God. I felt the Lord speak to me, "Daphne, I saw how much you love Me. You are my indeed my beloved." I am lost of words, lost of everything but to just focus in the Lord and His love for me;dwelling in that comfort. =] The Lord bring me to the different areas of my life again, and I just can't believe how I overcame them with Him. I just knew, I put my altar of my life in Christ alone, that even when I am alone, I know I am not lonely, for He is with me. As long as God is with me, I will do anything and everything for Him and with Him.
My God reigns, His love never fail me
My God reigns, He's ruling over all
IN ALL MY LIFE
IN EVERY SITUATION
I know
MY GOD IS GREATER
MY GOD IS OVERALL
Is no longer about how much the Lord can do for me, because He never change, thus His everything for me is sure to be the best for me, but rather, today, the question will be "God, How much can I do for You, for Your GLory and Name!"
*THIS IS NOT A HOLY POST, THIS IS JUST MY PURE LOVE FOR SOMEONE I TRULY LOVED*
Love,
Daphne_Chloe
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