Sunday, July 27, 2008
What is love?
I have been thinking about this question for sometimes, not because I am desperate to know, but I am just curious to know what it takes to love, to be loved and to stay there always. I am no longer very young, and after so long, I have never been into a relationship, what makes me know what exactly love is then? Although I can look upon many lasting couples around me, but that doesn't make me inherit their traits to know how to love! Love seems to be a journey and who then is willing to walk this journey with me to answer all my unknown!?
Is love all about gifts and surprises? I have received many gifts from guys before, and many of those are what surprises and bring that smile to my face, but is that love? I mean I know they sacrifice and then is that love also?
Is love about kisses and hugs? I mean to me those are just signs of affirmation to someone I appreciate! I mean I kiss and hug my daddy and I mean I am sure I love him, but that's not the kind of love I am referring. Does it means that if I kiss you or give you my warmest hug means I love you?
What is love? (Can someone enlightened me?)
I remembered when I set my vow unto God when I was 12 and renewing them every 2 years, I told God, I will set my life just for Him until He knows I am ready to get into one relationship, and then I know I just want to love God and set my life for Him alone until I was 18, I told God, this time round, I will set 3 years vow and after so, when I am 21, I will wish to find my other half. In fact, last year till this year, I was tempted by Satan. I was pushed to my max and I fell, but God being sovereign, He picks me up and since February I told God, I am going to run it well, till September this year.
I told God, I wish to have those guys who He thinks will suit me to enter my life 3 months before my vow ends, and God indeed allow this to come to pass. There are a few guys that enter my life and expressed their interest when when the time span knowing each other was short. Well, I can't deny I am spoiled for choices, because most of them has their own fair of charm and abilities. But like I said to many, they caught my eyes, but not one caught my heart yet. Well, some simply expressed their interest, but I know my stand, thus what I do after they say is, I will get to know them more as a friend, before I move on to decide and zoom down.
Now, I am quite happy in a way, because I am pampered and loved by many, yet vexed because I do not wish to see them investing so much to know that in the end, they do not stand a chance in my life. All of them are good and all of them are different, but I know and I know for sure, I can only choose ONE.
Daphne is lost in her own world of love and unknown.
What is love then?
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8:02:00 PM
