Saturday, June 07, 2008
The prize is always better than the price!
I know it has been a long time since I last updated my blog. I am really busy with my school work! I know it maybe an excuse to many, but I am really busy with the assignments and meeting the deadlines. Well, the satisfaction in completing the work is indeed awesome. This week indeed has been a long, tiring week. Tuesday, 3 June 08, was a day to remember my late uncle. He had left this world for 49 days since 16 April 08. It was a tough day for me, fighting not just with my own emotions but with the emotions of my granny. She was devastated when she recalled what had happened. My whole family took leave today and by right, I should too! Well, I stood firm to my faith this day. I did not took leave nor did I came home early that day, but I did spend quality time with my family members when I got home after youth camp meeting. It was a tough time, for me and my family. Till today, I still have no thoughts why such things happened, but I know I serve a sovereign God who has His plans that I can never comprehend. I thank God for the peace within me! The peace of God is found in the peace I have in God.
I had many late nights recently because I was rushing to complete reading "Spirit Filled Believer's Book" and to complete a 1500 words book review. Above all, I still went out to spend time with a friend of mine in SOT who enlisted into the NS on 4 June. Though I was busy, I knew I need to sacrifice a little bit more of my sleep. I chatted with a member of mine and he made me cried through the night, and force me to plead to God to change his mind. I don't know how come I cried like a baby that night, until the Holy Spirit showed me how grieve and disappointed He was in me, when I gone through what my member is going through now. I did what that was not glorifying His name. I cried like a baby. I plead for forgiveness and also I beg for God to change the heart of my friend. -Pray & Fast-
Anyway, today I went for service in Expo. It has been a long time since I been there. It seems that the last time I was there was the last week my cell group was in Expo, before we shift to Jurong West. Honestly, I went to service because it was a requirement for me to attend at least 2 services this week, since there is a guest speaker this weekend. I never expect anything. In anyway and any case, I went. I was challenged during the service. The points that was preached makes me ponder. After the preaching, it was tithe and offering time. I gave all that I have in my wallet and I nearly cried out because it was really PAIN. I cried in my heart but I told God as I build Your house, You will bless me. I gave willingly; though my heart was in tears.
I am a little bit tight recently, after SOT fees, tithe & offering, mission trips and some SOT textbooks, I barely have enough, I thank God I am fasting, so I do not have to use any money. Today, after I gave all that I have, I told God I am leaning on Him. There are still 2 mission trips that is coming, 1 youth camp. I wonder how am I going to find those money to pay, but God I am trusting in You. I am trusting!
So much more to say, but for now, I shall stop here. I will update more really soon. Is time to get back to my work. :) Sorry peeps. I miss all of you and Love you.
God bless,
Daphne_Chloe
10:42:00 PM
