Monday, May 05, 2008
I will be moving to my granny's home this coming week. It will certainly be a change of environment for me, though I grew up here when I was a little younger. It has been years since my world is full of AMK again. I remembered when I was in Yishun and called to be a Yishunite, reaching out to people, now is a totally different calling set for me. I'm excited about my moving because I have a whole new set of furniture all to myself, especially the QUEEN SIZE bed. I can imagine how I can "roll" around my bed. Anyway, I will be a little "lost" too, because my parents are not by my side. Staying with my granny and my two uncles. I believe with God great things are going to happen. I am setting my room to be a prayer room and closet for myself and some of my chosen one who I'm going to pray with.
In You, I find my PEACE
In You, I'll bend my knees
I am supposed to be in school today, but today I am sick and this morning was a little busy for me, as I travelled around to bring my mother to see doctor. She seen two doctors just this morning itself, a chinese and a western doctor. She was supposed to go to work today, but while she walked to just the nearest block, she can't carry on, her leg was so pain that she was perspiring cold sweats. She called me to wake daddy up to drive her home. When I saw her this morning, my heart broke; iterally break! I messaged the Dean of Students for my school and told him I would like to apply urgent leave and I bring my mum to doctor and also to see the doctor myself.
The result was shocking. It was a little unbelievable since there is no history records of this in my entire family. The doctor was suspecting that she maybe down with diabetes, and told her to pay a visit again this coming Saturday. Mummy seems brave but I know she is a little worried too. She is only 40 years old this year, why would such illness attack her. I am lost to see my mother, the one I love most in such a state. I just can't believe.
I remembered I was asked this question just not long ago, "Would you deny ever God?" I was so firm and said, "Of course NOT." In my heart, you are simply just asking nonsense. God is my God, the One I worship, the One I love, why would I want to give up on Him? In addition, I added, I said, even if I am push to death I will not let go of God. It was so easy to say when life is so peaceful. I just simply love God, read His Word, Pray and have communion with Him. Yet a friend pushed a little further, what if I want you to deny Christ, else your family will be in danger! It took me a while and even the courage from the Holy Spirit to say, even if my family is going to be attack, I am going to still love God and trust God, with Him all things are possible, with Him all good things will happen to those who love Him.
I love my family though I came from a super broken up, chaotic family but I still love them. God placed me here for a purpose and it is through all the imperfections, I am make a vessel to the people out there. Well, with the Holy Spirit, answering those questions seemed just so easy. I can say today, I am not just asked, I am challenged. As I walked towards the goal from above, I am challenged to live by FAITH! I know I can placed my hope in Christ no matter what the situation is, but I am just a mere human with emotions. I was broken and torn apart when my uncle passed away. I wonder where is God, but thank God, He revealed Himself so real to me then. I can declare that God is a good God even when one of my loved one is gone.
Today, am I still going to say God is a good God? I don't know if I can but I am going to believe that my God is a good God. My God is a healer of all mankind, with Him, miracles and signs will be seen. I am holding on by faith. I just don't understand how can I still trust God even when I am so lost in life. I don't know too, but I just know and I know, I just have to trust and believe. It is indeed true that the greater your destiny is in God, the tougher the journey of your life will be. I am once again what does TOUGH means - Thoughts Of Using God's Help.
Daphne is in a stage of her life, communion with God all her steps in life. :)
Someone just said, my face has shown the glory of God flowing and pouring unto me. I just have to say, the glory came with a price unto me. It was a big price to pay, but with God, everything is possible, everything is good.
God is a good God,
Daphne
12:53:00 PM
