Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Today is the second day of SOT and there are so many things to thank God for in the past two days. I can't deny I am super tired after my Orientation on 7 April 2008. I remembered reaching home that night nearly at 12am. Well, this is a very tiring, yet fruitful orientation because it allows me and I believe everyone in SOT2008 to build this special friendship; a friendship that we bring till eternity.
Just a little introduction of my team. Most of us are from the same zone, Dev's Zone, which means this make us one of the youngest team around, aging from 20 to 23 (not including 3 slightly older friends of ours) I saw potential young men and young women in the team who are willing to take up the call of God and be obedient to do His will. I saw humble hearts who are willing to learn and I saw persevered members who will never give up. All of us come from different background but all of us has the same walk, the walk (steps) unto obedience of not just a say-er but a do-er of the Word. I am really contented to know all of them. I am eager to grow and learn from them as most of them are either CGL or helper in the cell group.
God is working mightily within us, because all of us are hunger for more of Him and less of ourselves. The 2 worships that we had for the past 2 days really touched our souls, to cry out, to laugh, to peace out with God. He ministered through Pastor Derek and many devils were casted out, many were set free. God is indeed awesome.
I experienced the peace of God yesterday as He assured me through the worship. I was a little unease in my heart since I know I was approved to enter SOT. I feared (for what I don't know). Well, God assured me that He will walk with me, He will guide me, He will lead me. Even when it is tough, He is going to be there for me. I know I am in the arms of God through this SOT and everyday of my life. I thank God for the assurance. Today, we were told to just pray and pray during worship. God stood in our presence again. I don't know why, but as I spoke in tongues, continuously for 15 minutes, I have no idea what I am praying for and what I am praying, but I know while praying, I was lead to pray for my family. I just kept praying for my family's peace that even as I took this step to obey God, I want the peace of God to flow in my family too. I want them to experience the type of peace only Jesus can give. I prayed and I got worried as I pray; well I did press in, yet just somehow, the peace of God doesn't seems to satisfy me while I was praying. I found myself a little disturbed when Pastor Derek sang because it seems I have yet seem the breakthrough taking place, but well I thought maybe I will go home and pray for my family, thus. I followed and I stopped praying. As the song ends, Pastor Derek said, I know there are a group of people here, you are worried for your family. God knows you took that step of faith and He wants to assure you, that your family is in good hands. Wow, I literally cried and Pastor asked all those who are burdened, step forward. He laid His hands on me, and there I am on the floor. I can't remember anything much than Psalm 23 :2. I was so peaceful lying on the floor, it felt like those comfortable, greeny grass. I went back to my seat, having that victory in Christ. I am so loved. :) God is simply too good for me.
Even as I write this, I am actually struggling with another issue, which is to serve in which particular ministry! I have my reasons to why I am so indecisive, but God isn't concern about that of the past, He is concern of bringing me to another level of glory and breakthrough with Him. Obedience is better than sacrifice. Serving is indeed about the love I have for God, not on the comfort zone of what I like to do. I love children and I wish to serve there, but I guess, God is pushing me to a better and greater calling. My CGL "challenged" me to join CG (cell group) ministry. Father, let Your will be done in Me according to Your word.
Anyway, I anticipate my classes everyday, even it ends at 4pm for me. The flesh is indeed weak in many times, but yet the heart and the soul is hungry for more than just these. I am really thankful. As I wait upon the Lord, I am trusting God more than I can, believing in God with all that I have. SOT 2008 students are brought from glory to glory everyday, as God pours Himself so free unto us. :)
Pray with me
His servant, NOW & FOREVER.
Daphne_Chloe
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