Monday, April 21, 2008
It was as if I was living in a dreamland.
On 12th April, I received the news that my Uncle is in hospital. The next five days were really hectic for me as I run from places to places. Well, apart from being tired, I moved on with the strength from above. I did out of love towards all my family members. Above all, I did these from my late Uncle. It will be a remembrance to me from now on.
Five days later, on a Wednesday morning, we received a phone call from the hospital, telling us to rush down to spend the last few moments with my Uncle. He waited till the whole family before he took his last breathe and last hard count from his heart. He departed from this world on 16th April 2008 at 0918.
During the wake, it was as if he is so near yet so far from us. He was sleeping there. He no longer can smile and joke with us. He can't speak no more. He is nowhere visible. He is gone. I spent four days in the wake near the coffin. I slept very little throughout the wake, for I know there won't be anymore chances, thus I make it precious. This Uncle of mine dotes me a lot when I was young. He would bring me everywhere and anywhere whenever he is free. He would buy me any and everything I want. I grew up being a happy girl.
He left the world without saying his last word. We did not even hear his voice for the very last time before he depart from this world. All of us wish that he will appear in our dream and I thank God, he did appear in my dream and had a chat with me. He held my hands and walked round his coffin once. He stood before me and shared with me those times when I was young, how he dotes me. He told me he was in heaven and the background behind him was the colours of the sky. It was beautiful. He "ascended" slowly up to the sky, and as he does, he said to me, "I left this world peacefully." I woke up in tears but with a great sense of joy. :)
20th April at 1431, his physical body left the world. It hurts really bad to see the huge fire burning. Indescribable. Unbearable. He is GONE. No more!
10 days of gashing wind. It flew by without me realizing. I am lost. I don't know how to feel, what to say. I look alright, but deep within, I don't know anything. First time in my 20 years on earth, losing someone so closed. What does it really means to have someone no longer near you, no longer there for you? Indeed, I don't know. I have been pondering.
Anyway, thanks and many thanks to people who send your deepest regards to me. I truly appreciate it. I know without all your prayers and support, I may have literally collapsed. Thank you so much, N318, N327, SOT2008 - Team 15, and those people who had kept me in prayers. I really am so much blessed by you guys. Not forgetting to thank my God for being so faithful till those moments when I am so faithless. Thank God.
Thank you.
Daphne_Chloe
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