Wednesday, April 16, 2008
It has been 5 days since everything had happened. Coming to the 6th day today, I am literally lost. I am still clinging on to the Hope I have in Christ, but yet my physically body is killing me with the facts every now and then. I am tired; physically, mentally and spiritually I am challenged. I have to wake up at 5plus in the morning everyday, traveling to go and leaving the school complex at 11am to go to NUH till 2pm. I will be heading towards my grandma's place in AMK, before going back to NUH at 5pm again. I will leave hospital at 8pm and will be back at AMK to accompany my granny, will only leave when I know granny is asleep. I would get home at about 11pm everyday, after doing my own work, I got to pray like never before. I will end my day at about 2am. I am really TIRED.
Now you maybe wondering what am I doing at 6.45am when I am supposed to be preparing to go to SOT. I got myself prepared all ready, and a phone call hold me back. "The hospital had called to say he is in a very critical condition, asking us to go down soon."
My heart broke the moment I heard it. I was so lifted up yesterday, because I shifted my faith from what was mentioned to the faith I have in God, and suddenly, reality sink me in AGAIN. I don't know what more to do, how much to ask, than to have God redeem a soul, and release his pain.
I have much to give thanks still. God is still a God who loves and knows me well. May God be my highest glory and praise.
SATAN, STAND BEHIND ME. YOU HAVE NO POWER OVER ANY OF MY FAMILY MEMBER'S LIVES. I SHUT YOU OUT, I CAST YOU DOWN, FOR I HAVE A GOD WHO STAYS WITH EVERY FAMILY MEMBER OF MINE. YOU HAVE NO SAY, YOU HAVE NO CONTROL. YOU ARE OUT OF THIS PLACE.
Jehovah Rophe, I need You.
Daphne_Chloe
6:47:00 AM
