Monday, April 28, 2008
God just work in ways my eyes can't see, move in ways I never understand. I was lost but now I'm found. Many things happened in my life, yet I stood up again and again by the grace of God. I told satan to stand behind me and lift my eyes to Jesus and Jesus alone. I can't believe that satan attacked my family again, but little did he behold that my faith in God is like a mustard seed. It has blossom. He can attack but he can't hurt them. I have been praying and seeking the will of my His and allowing Him to bring me from glory to glory. I just cannot stop loving God everyday of my life. I can't.
SOT was just a place of training, a place of willingness to be transform within. SOT was never a place for just the anointed ones from God. SOT is for everyone. In times to come, completing SOT doesn't make me any "holier"/"greater" than anyone of you. I am just an instrument of God. Give it a try and you will know what SOT can do in your life; I mean what God can do in SOT with your life as you sacrifice.
I had an quality time spent with a man of faith recently. I understood no one is perfect but yet when he shared about his life, I felt so ashamed. God indeed use the lowly to shame the better ones. Through the grace of God we are indeed made perfect. He asked me many questions that made me ponders and certainly would want to know the answers. Well, I will wait.
Serving. No one will understand why I chose Cell Group Ministry upon all the hurts that I faced once. I can run away and serve in Children Ministry with no objections given, but yet I know, God won't be happy. He knows I love children but if I go there, I am just running away from the pain that was laid in my life. I remembered how I prayed that night when I seek to obey God, to serve in the ministry that pleases Him and Him only. Well, I could choose; between Children and Cell Group and God directed the answers right into my heart by saying, "You serve me because you love ME, not because you loved the MINISTRY." Just like the saying goes, 'you remember the blesser not the blessings.'
Today, this song just caught me and renew my strength all over again. I cried as the lyrics touches my heart. I never understand why God loves me so much that He is willing to sacrifice. I am indeed really blessed by Him and I want to grow up loving and serving Him alone. This will be the prayer of my life for this year; to love God and to serve God.
This is such a beautiful children song. Be blessed like how I was blessed.
Dear God,
Thank me for loving me
And giving me Your all
When I grow up
I will still be serving You
I want to know You more
I want to serve You more
I will never forget You Lord
In Jesus' name, Amen
I want to know You Lord
You are a great big God
I am young and do not know a lot
Come and be my all
I want to love You more
Giving You my life and all
You died for me You sacrifice
I won't forget You Lord
I love You Jesus
I grow up knowing You
I love You Jesus
I grow up serving You
I love You Jesus
My life is save by You
I will never forget
Never forget
Grow up loving You
His servant NOW & ALWAYS,
d.
6:55:00 PM
