Monday, March 10, 2008
I have this fear.
Should I call it a fear?
Whenever I am in a car that exceeds the speed of 90Km/Hr, my heart would always feel unease. For those who drove me before, you certainly know; especially K.Quek. Then again, many times I only have the chance to sit back and hold my fear onto myself until the destination.
Yesterday, I got my very first experience on a bike. It was amazing. Having those winds that splashed against your flesh, the coolness in the open, the feeling of flying; the best solution to forget a pain temporary. (If I am sad, I know I will go for a motor ride) It was really thrilling. It was scary too. Imagine, I feared when someone drove about 90Km/Hr in a CAR, where I am so well protected, yesterday I had the fearful experience of 90Km/Hr on a BIKE. My heart nearly popped out.
Nevertheless, no complains. It was such a memorable first time. It makes me wanna get a bike license myself. -if I can convince my parents.- Anyway, thanks for the ride.
Many thoughts ran through my mind recently and I think I really did think too much, but then again, how could I not, when mouths are moving so much faster. Seriously, I am sick of all these rubbish when all people could do was to judge before understanding the reason behind every action done. Call me anything you like, for one day will come, the Judge will come and I chose to believe He will come to judge me and you. Whatever it is, I chose to apply what I had learnt in children ministry when I was younger.
Don't say something that isn't nice
Better listen to this advise
When your mouth is making fun
You can really hurt someone
So keep your lips together and
SSSSHHHHH
Once again, I am so helpless. I saw it yet I can't do anything. Maybe it is just not the time for me to even do anything, just feel helpless and sad. Troubles shared will eventually become half-trouble and blessings shared will become double blessings. If we don't, it is still a whole as what it is. God, I want to do something. I want. Helpless.
TOUGH - Thoughts Of Using God's Help
I shared this with many, but yet it is so tough to get in rooted in my life through moment like this.
Hopeless,
Daphne_Chloe
4:30:00 PM
