Sunday, March 02, 2008
Awesome. Awesome. Awesome.
Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hallelujah.
Indeed, many setbacks can lead us out of the realm of God, to the space of darkness, but when we chose to cling unto the promises of God, the unstable road will be a path of righteous and light. This is just so real, no eyes have seen, nor ears have heard, what the Lord can do. He knows the best and for His love for us, He will do anything and everything for us according to His plans.
I just can't deny how prayers work wonders in my life these days. One thing I can't live without today, it will be prayer; but get me right. I am a mere human too. There will be days when I am lazy, tired, reluctantly to even pray, yet those moments when I pray, I know the peace and faith within me is rising even higher. It wasn't easy for me to give up a little of my rest to pray, a little of my relaxing time to pray. IT WASN'T EASY but I chose to do it. I guess I love to do what's tough and different from others.
I heard so much testimonies about the wonders of prayers and I could testify it myself too, but what's more inspiring will always be how God blessed us through our prayers. Not only am I assured of the promises of God that He listens and whatever I asked, I have already received it, I truly know the fact that God multiply the time we spent with Him. Others may think I am wasting my time to just pray and seek the face of my Abba Father, but I think this is yet the most precious time of my daily life.
On Wednesday, God told me to worry not. I know I have been thinking a lot about my Bible School. I was afraid I can't get in because I can't clear the interview. I was afraid I can't get a decent part time job if I am studying in SOT. I really worried. I feared. Don't ask where is my faith. When I was prompted to worry NOT, God gives me so many of His promises. It just came to my mind one by one. "Cast all you cares upon me, for I care about you." "Do not be anxious about anything but in everything with prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God."
Since then, I know I just have to surrender. I just have to believe that whatever God has start to do in me, it will be come to pass and it will be done well in His time. I trust my all to Him again.
Thursday, a day I loved. Firstly because I can meet up with some of my cell group friends and of course I love to go to powerhouse. I have no idea why, but it seems as if times either stops or it runs. It seems to stop for me when I pray yet time seems to be in my history book before I could interact with it. No complains!
I learnt an important lesson from my cell group leader. Living sacrifice. God wants us and had chosen us to be a LIVING sacrifice; not a DEAD one. He gave us choices to either be at the altar; living as a living sacrifice or out of the altar and not be a sacrifice. (Romans 12:1) It makes me ponder. I want to be a LIVING SACRIFICE for my God. I want to serve Him the way He would intend for me. I want to obey!
This is the song that lingered in me while I was praying. For this song, it ministered so much to me into my heart.
Jesus, we enthrone You (I have You FIRST)
We proclaim You are King (You are MINE; King, Lord, Saviour)
Standing here in the midst of us (Within me, I found You there for me)
We raise You up with our praise (I give You all)
And as we worship build Your throne (I surrender; I'll do)
And as we worship build Your throne (I'll do; I'll live)
And as we worship build Your throne (I'll live; I'll worship)
Come Lord Jesus and take Your place (My life is Yours)
This is a moment I have waited for, so long. Revival. Visions. It brings me back to the past of where I used to be once, now I maybe there on the same path but with a stronger and better foundation with God. The presence of God just overwhelmed the house the moment we gathered together to worship. I just can't explain in words what's the exact feeling. Cell group has once again been the best place I can live in.
The tears of joy.
The smile of peace.
The heart to yearn.
The atmosphere to dwell.
The presence that sinks.
The love that desired.
The power that lift.
The Spirit that overwhelmed.
A vision was poured unto me. A new direction and assurance was lavished. The peace was assured within me once again. "Ahead of me was a journey, a path with lights shinning at the end of the day. There will be temptations along this road that will shift my focus away from my destiny, yet I ought to stay focus." It touches my heart. You know even when there were no tears from my eyes, there were buckets of tears in my heart. I know I need to make such a decision to follow God and to walk in the path of righteousness. The purpose is revealed!
A different service! A brand new start of the month. A great new start. I know the past 2 months of me transiting over wasn't easy especially when so many errors and mistakes had to be made to make me realized I am actually weak and prone to errors. I know no matter what I have had done wrong, God still loves me; nothing less. Yet God is so faithful to me. He is so real to me. I have nothing to give or to offer than a heart, a heart that longs for Him, a heart that desires Him and a heart that love Him. He poured Himself so free unto me, I am thankful.
I stood up for the altar call. You know what, I can't remember when was the last time I ever went down for altar call. When was the last time I cried out to God so freely. I simply can't remember. Yet today, I was granted that chance again. The liberty to worship, to sing, to love and certainly to be who I am before God. I made a choice to go to Bible School to get myself train, to preach the gospel to the lost. I want to see the purpose and walk in the purpose that God has for me. A life without the direction of God is simply leading a blind life. I only have one life to live, I can't afford to do wrong, can't afford to waste my time.
The spirit of God held me so tight that I was trembling so badly. My legs are so weak that I can't even stand properly and my hands are shaking like mad, with all that I know I was praying and engaging myself in my spirit towards God. I know God is giving and adding some values into my life. Indeed I have nothing before God and all I have within me now, is given by Him. I am so loved by God and I love God so much that I know I will serve Him all the days of my life. -Pray with me on the ministries that I should be in-
This is just the song that brings my heart to tears, my life that's so broken and mend by Him alone. I have nothing more nor less to give, than this; MY LIFE.
One life; I lay it at Your altar
One Love; I have with You
Touch me again
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands
One Word; You know I will follow
One Heart; Broken to You
Used me again
Your mercies follow on
For all my days
Thank God for everything and for that I guess my life is indeed so much changed. My life is speaking so loudly about the love of my God. He is so real. I cannot resist it. I love Jesus. God saved another friend of mine yesterday. I am praying now that they will get themselves rooted in the word of God, in the church of God and certainly in the mini family of God (Cell group).
A new week. Is going to be a better week. God has it all planned for me, do you have God too?
Readers, if you want to come and experienced what I am, do tagged on my blog and allow me to be the servant of God to welcome you. God doesn't love me a little more than He does on You. He loves us equally; differently. Come, CHC welcomes you, so do N318 & N327.
Anointing will rest upon you, steps of faith
Daphne_Chloe
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