Sunday, February 10, 2008
I guess reality has not just reached my door but the doors of many unknown friends too. I am thankful that many of you are feeling for me, yet I wish I can let you know that I rather you don’t feel the way I am. I pray that all of your eyes will be open to see and look at my friend, believing, he is still the best child of God, a great friend any people can have and certainly the best man, girls can stay with. I know I can’t change the fact of how he treated me and how he has presume himself to be, but I believe he has his reasons, so let us give him one more chance, bless him and walk with him the journey he choose to take, shall we?
I am not trying to be some great and wonderful girl here, I have to say, forgiving was tough, forgiving was pain, but I understood, forgiveness is joy, forgiveness is love. I found out and wish I could fully experience the real meaning of hatred, but yet I can’t bring myself to do so. I care that I am willing to put myself and stand in his place, leaving the past hurt aside, asking myself that if I were him, I certainly would wish that such remarks would be the last things I receive from this judging world.
People have told me what I should do and how I should react but I am sorry to all of you, because I know and I believe what I am doing are what’s pleasing to God. I know some of you all are better in experiences but let me take the tough way out this time round with God’s footsteps. I won’t give him the coldest shoulder nor would I avoid him just because of what he had done. I will talk to him still (if he calls/chat), because I was reminded that we all need a friend in life (people, don’t tell me he got his girlfriend)
If you all want to know what had happened, please ask me personally. I know I will say no more and I know I won’t mention anymore than what you know, and I rather you stop guessing and think likewise. I just want to get this to your mind, no one is at fault in this situation, we all made choices, and thus we are just paying the consequences of what had happened (maybe it seems that I am the only one, but is okay). He is not as bad as you all think he is nor am I as “bad” as some people think I am.
How good it is to give thanks unto the Lord
How good it is to give thanks unto our God
For He heals the broken-hearted, binding up their wounds
It is good to bless His Holy Name.DREW HUANG:Pal, thank you for spending the whole evening to hear all my nonsense and certainly the meal that is your treat! Thank you so much, I really enjoyed your presence and your company, your listening ears taught me the meaning of what a friend is all about. I can’t express the gratitude than to tell you I really enjoyed myself. You had brightened my day and allowing me to see more than hope in failures and pains. I thank God for you, my awesome friend.
AiHui, Daniel, Jie Sharon, Kor Tommy, YiJunThank you for standing by me and sharing the same pain with me. I know my burden was lighten by more than half because of your prayer, your love, your care and concern. I am really thankful for all of you who taught me to look at things in a rightful perspective. I can’t imagine how long I would need to overcome if I don’t have all of you here with me. Love you all and I’m truly blessed 100 holds this New Year because I have great and wonderful friends like you all. Thank God for each and every one of you.
Adeline, Erika, Lynde, Sebas, WeiChinI’m moved by all your actions. I am thankful for all of you who respected me when I chose not to share. I know you all knew what happened and still chose not to ask much about it. I really thank God for you all who respected by decision and gave me the assurance that I can turn to you when I am in need. Thank you for your willingness to stand by me and give me the space to be who I am. You had made this painful, long and narrow journey so much shorter. Pals, you all are the best gifts I can ever find. I truly appreciate all of you.
YouI thank God for you in everything that you had poured and given to me. This may sound fake but I am serious that I have had chosen forgiveness above hatred. I have let go and let God be who God is in my life. I want to bless you and I wish to see you prosper in everything you do. I am sorry for those days when words just hurt and
I am sorry for pushing you down the cliff. –I don’t know what more can I offer than sorry- One thing stays forever, that you will always be my friend. I won’t look at you at how you had gone against me, but someone who is a great friend to anyone.
God is a good God, and I believe whatever decision I am making today is what pleasing to my Abba Father above. I was reminded forgiveness is not about forgetting what had happened but learning from what had happened. I won’t forget, but I forgive with God’s help. Time was never the healer of mankind but God was, is and forever will be.
-readers you may think I am boasting or acting, but this is written from my heart, I am sincere- You chose for yourself the faith and believe you have in me. I know I can do ALL THINGS WITH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.
10:04:00 PM
