Saturday, January 12, 2008
Today, I marked the day where Faith is tested again. I was pushed to the max where I will be alone meeting a new bunch of people. I am not saying I am lonely because I was never lonely anymore ever since God enters into my life. I was just afraid, I was just shy, I was just not ready to meet new people in a new cell group. People, would you step back with me and look at my situation and tell me, these are EXCUSES. Those are what Satan keeps me away from doing, receiving and blessing people/children of God. I thank God with the prompt in my heart that I should be attending a cell tonight, I really took the step of FAITH.
I was promised that the Cell Group Leader (CGL) will be the guy I am meeting before heading to cell, since I only knew him, but little did I expect that he would call me and tell me, he can't meet me as he has to be there early to prepare the meeting. Alright, I understand, I was there once. I was in Yishun MRT when I know my heart, my soul, my spirit and every part of me is feeling uneasy. God told me, it is in me YOU TRUST. okay, God it is in You I TRUST. Faith is really not an easy step. It was tough, but when you see beyond that faith that's installed by God, you just understand God just love us so much!
The CG was great. I miss such fellowship for long. I desire and longth for such thing/environment/atmosphere since 2006. My heart was crying while worship, though I was a little reserve in the beginning. I got word for a sister beside me. I love to see how God can use me in everyday, in every way of my life. I am so thankful. I am just a living instrument of God. I was so inspired by the testimonies that some of the members shared. I just can't but believe that God is working, in EVERYONE life.
As I was writing this, I felt God telling me, my Child, you don't have to search anymore, this is the one I have placed and installed for you. Search Me and you will find Me. I will continue to pray till I see God's hands and direction.
YIJUN
Thank you for making me so welcome. Though I have no idea if I did met you during Christmas Service but I thank you for doing a great job. I am sorry if I was a little reserve, but then again thank you. Your hospitality makes me feel loved and welcome.
CGL
I thank you for sharing a little more with me and giving that space and chance towards choices. I believe God is moulding up a great man after His own heart in you. I see the potential and the servanthood of God in you. Respect. Thank you so much for everything. My stay in your CG was really good and memorable.
Shane = Ming Feng
I thank you for giving me that chance to step out of faith, as much as I wasn't willing, I told myself why I chose CHC. Anyway, thank you for assuring me that I will be fine even when I am alone. I made you proud! I stood up with faith and I enjoyed with love. Thank you.
Everyone in CG
Thank you for making my stay a really memorable and enjoyable one today. I am glad I meet you all.
I am so in love with God
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