Thursday, January 17, 2008
This entry that I am posting has no negative thoughts or any unpleasant feelings. I just want to share and express what’s within me.
After what I have had to experience with my heart recently, I felt as if I have an old life with a new perspective, or did I gain new wisdom out from death? The recent few nights before I go to bed, I would certainly bid my love ones good night or if I could express my gratitude towards them, because I am certainly not sure if that’s the last time they can hear me once again. Life is so unpredictable now. I am not trying to scare anyone but I just want to share that we ought to treasure life, before it is too late. There is no regret in expressing one self, but there would be regret if you don’t.
Dad & Mum
I have finally understand the love that both of you have for me. I am sorry that when I was young and innocent, I didn’t appreciate both of you at all. I always complain why do I have such a pair of parents like you two, but now I am sincerely sorry for those words that hurt, because I know I have the best set of parents anyone can have. I thank you for bringing me up in a way where I had freedom to experience different things and given that chance to make decision in life. I am thankful that when I fall, instead of lecturing, scolding or even caning me, your care, thoughts and certainly that set of shoulders for me to cry are really encouraging. –Don’t tell me, if you spare the rod, you spoil the child, I am not spoilt at all- I have nothing much more to offer than to tell the both of you how thankful I am to be your daughter and how much I love you.
Elvin – My Childhood Partner
You were the sunshine in my life, the joy of what life is all about. I cried when I saw you getting yourself into so much hurt, I was upset when you fell and refused to repent, yet I rejoice with you when you succeed and be proud of you when you POP. Though they always remind us they didn’t expect to have you, I thank God for you, because with you, I enjoyed life with a colorful childhood. You have the most beautiful eyes that spark, the pretty smile that cheers, and a bubbly personality to love. You are someone I will give my best, my all for. Thank you for being the best brother for the past 19 years.
A-S-K
3 people that had entered my life with the same purpose which I hope to get out of them.
A - I have never regretted in any moment to wait for you for 2.5 years of my life, because through the waiting, I realized more about myself. I found out the differences in us. I am thankful that through these times, I had learnt about patient, about endurance and all about loving. You are someone great and I am thankful we are best friend of one another. I am so glad that we can’t be couple but we are still friends. Anyway, my greatest desire will be to see you back in church serving and loving the Lord with the girl you truly love. God gives you the right woman to lead you on for Him, so be wise and choose the right one.
S – Short as it maybe, I have had the most thrilling experience about life after meeting you. I wish that at many times, I can have control over what I want to see it happen but I thank God, I don’t. Your cares, your love, your thoughts for me have been recognized, though at times I may not be expressive, I just want to tell you I truly appreciate all your acts of love unto me. No future is certain, but I know our future is set on good foundation because we trusted God for everything. My wish and desires for you is to see you rise up for God and certainly to find the right girl for your life who will accept you for who you are. I just want to take time to express my gratitude towards you once again. -I always treat you as who you are -
K - You entered my life with just trying to be someone as dear as a brother, but your emotions failed you. There is no regret to give you the best of myself to love you when we were there and to have you love me in return. I thank God for reality because He has indeed prepared someone more valuable and precious for your life. I wish and pray that you will treasure her all the days of your life. Thank you for everything, especially those moments when you were there to just take care of me. I miss the China porridge.
God has given me 3 guys where He showed His love in a physical form. I am really thankful for them. Through them, God taught me to ASK and certainly believe that whatever I asked, it will come to pass. God is indeed a good and faithful God. Now, all I ask is to have another day to treasure my life with. God knows the plans He has for me and I pray I will know the plans He has for me too.
I am so thankful I found God in my life journey and to have Him assured me all the days that are coming. God Has Already Been to My Future, do you believe it? I tell you, when God declares your future good, it will be good! It will be filled with many wonderfully good days! (1 Peter 3:10) Though an evil day may come, you are to remember that it is only one evil day, in which God will cause you to stand. (Ephesians 6:13) According to God’s Word, you will have many more good days than evil days!
My friend, God wants you to get ready, and expect such favor and increase in the days ahead that “you shall expand to the right and to the left, and your descendants will inherit the nations, and make the desolate cities inhabited”. (Isaiah 54:3)
Today, know that you stand on favor ground because God has declared your future good. Expect good things to happen to you. Expect to see the favor of God on you and your family. Expect the blessings and increase of the Lord. Expect good days to show up in your life!
I believe that I won’t die. God is on my side, He is going to build me up for a generation like these. Satan can enter but Satan can’t hurt. For God says, HE WILL COMMAND HIS ANGELS CONCERNING YOU TO GUARD YOU IN ALL YOUR WAYS. (PSALM 91:10) My dears do take comfort in God’s promises and plans. He loves you so much that in His life while He was around, You were the Only One in His mind and for you, He went to the cross so that You don’t have to die that painful death.
Shinning His Light
Daphne Chloe Toh
12:51:00 PM
