Saturday, January 26, 2008
I know it’s been a few days since I last blog, and for those who know what had happened, I sincerely would want to take this opportunity to thank everyone for every prayer that you have had given upon me and my life, specially dedicate to my newly found, beloved cell group, N318 & N327. Someone told me that I am well-loved by my cell group friends, and seriously when I heard it, I was overwhelmed. Not forgetting those who do not know what had happened, I was down with a very severe high fever. This is the very first time in my life that I experienced something like these, it was 3 days straight of fever with its temperature hitting not less than 39.0 even when I perspire so much. Trust me, seeing doctor and having more medicines do not help in times like these. I can’t help but to obey the fact which I have to eat medicine to recover. I prayed while I was on my bed, I prayed when I was feeling cold, I prayed when I was feeling drowsy, I prayed till I fell asleep. It got better, and then it came back again.
Today, service is shared by Dr A.R Bernard, the anointed great speaker. I love the way he preached and the way he would get a message across to his congregation. Like I said, I was sick, as much as I desired to be in church, mummy disagreed to it, as she thinks it is too dangerous for me to travel alone to such a far place. I can’t assure her because whenever I tried to stand up, my head starts to spin really badly. Like what a brother shared with me, God sees my heart. I was feeling so drowsy and tired after my medication but I told God I want to watch the service online. I know God must have prepared something really remarkable tonight through His servant Dr A.R. Bernard.
Before I start anything, I just have a quote to share, “it is not about superstitious, is about a new direction in life” I am not trying to be holy or trying even harder than you are to have God in everything you do, I have NEVER misuse the name of God as long as I am concern. Whatever I’ve done, I did out of the consent of the Holy Ghost in me.
The sermon topic of which he shared about was on The Holy Spirit. He guided us to Acts 9:31 where it shows us 2 main points: the fear/reverence/respect of the Lord and also the awareness and consciousness of the comfort of the Holy Spirit. (Multiply in number) Holy Spirit is the Lord of our Harvest. (Luke 4: 18) What Dr A.R. Bernard shared really opened up my mindset to the power to time and understanding for others to accept facts that they refused to receive. “People may not understand now but as time passes by, when God opens their eyes to equip the fruit of the labor, they will understand.”
Holy Spirit is the comforter of life. It is true that not many had understood the value of this relationship we have in/with God. Many question about who God is yet how many had asked who this God that’s in Christ is! People like us detest changes, but we all know it is necessary for growth. What makes you different from others will not be the set of changes you had gone through, but the fact of those transisitition periods you gave yourself when changes have to take its place. Jesus’ disciples did not understand too. (Acts 1:6-7)
One thing we are assured of that whatever we had to go through, we do not go through because we have the power but because we are powered by the Holy Spirit. Sometimes we never understand why we have to go through such a situation but I thank God that so many a time, I do not know why first until I go through and overcome it. “God don’t always reveal everything to us because our reactions maybe an error.” Holy Spirit comes so that He can be a guide to teach us, to like Jesus and it is certainly true that without the guidance of the Holy Spirit, we are bound to make wrong mistakes because it is our own will and desire that we choose between those choices given.
Is time for a check! Have we forgotten the main character of this life story of ours? Whenever you asked others, how they are doing spiritually, remember you are asking how their relationship with Jesus is. The quality time of relationship with the Holy Spirit (any human being) is more important than the things you can do without the relationship of the Holy Spirit (any human being). The success of your life is determined with your relationship with the Holy Spirit.
Holy Spirit is the Lord of the Harvest. It is so important that we need to respect everyone for how you portrayed yourself shows a lot about your God. Remember in life, we do have lots of chances to know people when they were young and you may be even be proud that you knew this person longer than others but let me ask us you then, how much do you understand this person?
The sermon today really touches my heart so deep that I realized how much I need the Holy Spirit for every actions that I am taking just to be sure I am taking the right path in God’s plans for me. I know is tough I believe I have an Awesome God. When I saw the tears of man and woman through the internet, I cried too. I cried because I know I am hungry for God and I promised I will give in my best yet out of own will and desire, I give up. I fell into temptations. When Pastor Kong was asking us to pray, I prayed and I cried. I was very lethargic after sitting before the computer for almost 3 hours with my body temperature of 39 degrees still, but I pressed on until the last minute knowing God has something prepared for me.
In fact nothing special happens. Pastor ended the whole sermon with an altar call, yet little did I realize when I say that prayer, tears of unjust flows out of my eyes. I know I have sinned against God. I know I have been tempted and I fell super badly for a moment. I have no idea why did I give in, but I have no regrets at all. I know it is out of love, that I am willing to sacrifice anything and everything. I know I am wrong. I know I should be tempted no more and I know I should no longer hold so tight towards such things with my own strength and emotions. I want to surrender once and for all.
I repent and at that very moment, I felt my fever left me. I was perspiring that I told mummy I needed a shower. I was healed instantly. “Come Holy Spirit” was a song that was very commonly sung by my church about 1.5 years ago. I remembered it was Joash’s favorite bedtime song too, yet when I saw the lyrics today when it was played and sang, it speaks so much to me and how much I want/need the Holy Spirit.
Come Holy Spirit fall on me
I need Your anointing come in Your power
I love You Holy Spirit
You are captivating my soul
Everyday I grow to love You more
I’m reaching for Your heart
You hold my life in Your hand
Drawing me closer to You
I feel Your power renew
Nothing compares to this place
Where I can see You face to face
I worship You in spirit in trueIt is a stage of disillusion, a stage of apprehension, a stage of uncertainties but it will be a stage of trusting and surrendering. God, I am serving out of delight not out of duty. I love You Jesus.
Before I end, I just want to tell that someone, you had NEVER been a temptation in my life; I gave you the key to enter for a purpose and remember, temptations can’t tempt someone until that person wants to be tempted himself/herself. I found the pleasure, so it is not your fault. What you have not believed, I had told you long ago, because God had long warned me. Remember I shared with you, I prayed for you that very night and I asked you what and how you will react when you know God is watching over our single actions. You just smiled to me.
God is my judge today
Daphne Chloe
11:32:00 PM
