Saturday, January 05, 2008
Happy New Year.
It is a new beginning, so do expect great harvest this year. This is the year the Lord has given to us, so try and do give your best in everything you do. Though I was home on the eve on New Year I guess I had the best of it. I was home sorting out what I want to see myself achieve in this New Year, especially my walk with the Lord. I am tired of being so mundane. I want and I know I need to rise up to occasions. I miss those time when I was so on fire for the Lord. Anyway, the Lord knows my plans and walking with Him, I believe my plans will come to pass.
I have 4 more weeks before I bid goodbye to NYP. Yet this 4 weeks will never be a killer until you realized the dates for submissions of projects. Things do happened out of a sudden without us taking a hint of it. My laptop failed me yesterday. The whole screen black out and now I can't even open up unless I do so in safe mode which will take ages for it to enter to the main page. I have no idea how should I feel because I needed my laptop so badly as I have to hand in 3 projects by this weekend. How can I do so without my laptop? Panic, fear and the thoughts of having tears on my heart really made me crazy. Yet how faithful God is. Before everything started to go the wrong way, I did my devotion and the studies I did was on PEACE! The peace of God that surpasses everything. I have no idea what I could do than to pray for miracles.
Miracles do happen, and what's more exciting is when it happened with the help of someone you loved dearly. I have never been that thankful towards a friend of mine until I saw the extended hands that she gave me. A friend who is willing to lend me her laptop to do my work, and willing to accompany me to ACER HQ (in JURONG) on a Saturday morning. I failed though, because my fever did not subside, so I can't travel far. This friend of mine brought her laptop over to my place when she knows I wasn't even well to collect it from her. I am truly blessed by her and her actions. What more can I say and to offer for such a friend. Do you have a friend like this around you today?
People, don't tell me she is loud, she is not nice, she expects so much! Stop telling me all her negatives points because I doubt you have even half of her virtues. She maybe all the bad points you said, but do you have a heart like hers who is willing to do that much for a friend? If you don't just shut and move on in life.
God is indeed a great and awesome God.
I do get jealous too easily. I know I can't expect much when I am with you but I can't bring myself not to think when I saw those photos and those words that you used. I have no idea where I stand in your life and what's the purpose of you holding me in your life. I can't see the future, I dare not hope for the present, all I could was to take a step each and every day. We communicate daily, but everyday after all, I saw the block that's between us, getting bigger and bigger. Your promises to me were like mere words, and I just can't imagine when the day will come when I can fully trust you. I am disappointed not because you lied, but because I can no longer trust you like before.
*This is just a penny of my thought!* This is written when I am down with fever of 38.8 degrees. :(
Continue struggling with projects,
Daphne_Chloe
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