It is so much a fact that what you are today was measured by how you were yesterday. I grew up from a very messy family background that love was never the bottom solutions towards resolving problems, rather fights, quarrels, loudness, hatred were what that proves you stronger than the other party. I grew up yearning for love, for someone who will care and show me the whole world and lift me up with his love. I thank God for these people because with them, I am here today. I certainly would like to thank God for choosing me out from the pit of hell, to the promised land of Heaven.
I know I have a very big problem when I come to handle with emotions. I would often be lured into my own feelings and emotions when I know someone treats me very good. Maybe this is the way I seek for attention and when someone can do so, I want to get a little closer. I KNOW THIS IS WRONG. I fell once again before I closed this chapter of my life, but I know I can seek forgiveness in God and be willing to change and repent.
To you:
I am sorry for showing my emotions too early. I know I was pushy and I demand an answer but now all I know, nothing of these will be important anymore. I just hope we will be friends and I pray that you will rise up to occasions when God prompts you to. I wish you every success in everything you do and getting to the main point, if God really set us for His glory, He will put us through again, meantime, let us be friends and siblings in Christ.
To God:
I am really sorry for taking control over what I shouldn’t be doing. I should trust you in providing me with someone of great values and someone who is great for my life. I should be slow in feelings and fast to Your voice and prompting. I know You want me to be wise and to understand why You allow me to walk through such life journey. (Ephesians 5: 15)
To Myself:
I am sorry for making a fool out of myself, but I know there is no wrong in showing affections and love unto someone. I rather give away my pride than to live with regrets. I still love myself no matter what I have had done wrong, and I know God is a forgiving God. In this New Year, it will be a harvest time for myself to be back on fire for God, and until and unless you think I can be your helper, I will never fall into emotions again. May God be my judge this day.
Someday my Prince will come – John 14:3
Daphne Chloe Faith
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