Saturday, November 10, 2007
I had a dream, a dream I know God has put into me. Now I am praying to God that He will explain to me what exactly this dream is talking about.
I dreamt that God has been calling my name throughout the dream. He didn’t call me Daphne Daphne, He shouted all the way, Chloe, Chloe, Chloe! I was really disappointed because I can’t see God, but contented in a way that I knew it’s His voice and could recognize is Him, my Abba Father. (It just reminds me of John 10, The Good Shepherd and His Sheep) The story continues.
I saw an eye-catching river. It is a pure beauty from God; I stood in awe! The river is big, the water is plentiful, and the color is gorgeous. It amazed me; it really amazed me. Standing still, I heard, “Come to the River and drink of the water that you will never thirst again!” God knows I am desperate for Him, God knows I long for Him. God knows everything that’s in me, of which I DON’T EVEN KNOW.
I know I have been trying to find a place that suits me most, I have been searching for a destiny that I can give myself. I know I have walked out of many people’s lives. I know I have made you sad. I know a lot of things of which I shouldn’t be doing, yet I chose to do so. I know and I know you have been constantly telling so. I am sorry I can’t bring myself to do what’s supposed to be right. (Maybe not now anymore)
As I mentioned, I was desperate for God. I want a breakthrough in life. I want to see God in me and living a life full of God. I want to see all the promises God has for me coming to pass. I want to do mission, to share and proclaim the love of God. I want to do so much more for my Beloved. Yet above all, I stood by the side of the River in silence and in tears. God prompted me once more, “Chloe, this is what I have installed for you, drink it and you will understand what exactly it means of never going to be thirsty again.” I wept. The cry in my heart stays. It says, “This River is too much for me to drink. I am not worthy Lord.” “My dear Child, I know you, you are capable for more than these. I am giving you a river, because I long to meet you here. I want to lift you up and have you to bring many more souls to My Kingdom. Come, I am here for you.” Says the Lord God. I shouted back, “I know You are here and I know You listen to what I have to say. You saw all the tears that weaken my soul. Lord I know You know it ALL. I am sorry I can’t bring myself to drink from this beautiful river of Yours, I am not worthy to receive this, but Lord if You are willing, pick me up and give me a well.”
There was a long silence after my last word.
Satan voice entered, “God knows you are not worthy. Please give up the hope of what you asked for. God doesn’t love you like what He did in the past.” I was broken; devastated. I sat by the side of the River and I cried like I never cried before. I pondered and I regretted for walking this journey on my own, yet I have no idea how I could walk in the light of God again.
Chloe, the name I gave
Help will always require from you
Love this name, which brings you out from hell to heaven
Over all the earth to eternity I will bring
Even from afar, I’ll bring you back to ME
I heard these repeatedly again and again. I have no idea what exactly it means, until I open up my eyes and see. I saw those words up in the sky. “Chloe, this is a short poem from Me to you. Chloe, the name I gave, Help will always require from you. Love this name, which brings you out from hell to heaven. Over all the earth to eternity I will bring. Even from afar, I’ll bring you back to ME.” I know I am the happiest child around for that very moment; I had even forgotten what I asked the Lord for.
“Stand up and rise up. Turn to your left and you will see the well you asked for. I will give you a well, a river, a sea or an ocean when you ask Me. I will prosper you and I will bring you up to live up my name! My daughter, give Me a chance to show you I truly care and give yourself that opportunity to know I am always there.”
I woke up not seeing myself drinking from the well, because I believe I am in that stage where I am struggling to make a difference for God. I felt God telling me that He wants me to continue that poem with Him and if you realized that poem has the initial of my name! (Maybe God wants me to carry on with His initial, JESUS)
Beautiful Rainbow
The covenant from ABOVE
God indeed is an awesome God. He gave me a dream, He allowed me to see His covenant yesterday night, a sweet looking rainbow. Lord, thank You for answering all my doubts and lifting me up from where I am to where You want me to be.
*Leaders who are reading this, I am sorry for missing the past few months and I hope you will pray alongside me till you see me back on fire for Him. I will be taking ‘leave’ (unofficial) till end of the year setting down and hearing exactly what He wants me to do again.
11:50:00 AM
