Tuesday, November 21, 2006
I had just walked through the darkest journey of my life and I am OUT of it. I am leading a joyful (read JOYFUL not happy, Jie said before, happy is a feeling that WON’T last, joy is in the heart, once you know is there, is there!) life full of excitement and grace for the Lord to do His work in me, through me and with me. For those who don’t know (I am not going to share again), I was pretty down some days back due to some problems faced in which I felt so helpless on. I almost run away from everything I was holding with my hands. GOD IS SO GOOD TO ME and from His Word, He said, “He will NEVER leave you NOR forsake you.” (Leave the sad stuff aside alright)
Since Sunday, after my Church Service, I felt so refreshed and recharged once again for the Lord. The Word that was delivered by the Pastor really stirs up my heart. Why do I have to feel this way and react with the feelings I am feeling. I have the control over my own emotions and I should always react the way Jesus had reacted. I know Jesus had gone through all that I have had been through. I just need to do a little bit more work by searching the Bible on how my Lord Jesus reacted to that problem.
I just want to take this time to thank all these special people who walk with me and care for me through this period of time.
Let me begins with my every own mentor, Auntie Phemie. I ought to thank you every single day of my life, knowing you pray for me and watch me grow each time we meet. There will be no better word to describe the love you had poured out to my life because you have out-give more than I can imagine. Seriously, I am lost of words towards the gratitude I needed to offer. Maybe the least I can do now is to really be rooted with the Word of God and truly be transform by Him to be the girl/woman He desires me to be. Auntie Phemie, I really thank you for everything that you had given me.
Secondly is to my beloved Kor Tommy and Jie Sharon. Both of you had showed me the power of love that OVERCOMES EVERYTHING. I had literally been standing beside you two, watching the careful steps you ought to take and each step will bring glory, honor to God and your faith in trusting 100% to Him and Him alone. God has indeed lavish more than just love in the both of you. I can only silently give thanks and stand in awe. Salute to the both of you. J
Coming up next is to my “all-time” favorite “uncle”. Though I had yet to know you every well but through this short period of time that we knew each other, you allow me to think and reflect not just on the situation but to also give thanks for all that come with the problems. Thank you for sharing your life (journey) with me, though I may not had really expressed my thankfulness to you, I do hope that deep down within you; you will understand I am not a girl full of words so for once let me say thank you Uncle Adrian for filling up the emptiness that had run dry.
7 years of friendship and I am still counting on, Rachel, Daryl and Michelle. All of you had really walked with me through every single journey of my life, in good times where we joke and we laugh, in tough time, we tie to each other and walk. These special moments are recorded in my heart and it will be brought with me till forever. I thank you for being who you really are before me and had taught me to live a life full of purpose by God. Thank you once again, my 3 dearest buddies.
I had one more special person to thank, but he is someone I can’t mention who. Nonetheless, I still want to thank you for your care and concern. I really appreciate you spending your night messaging me or even call me. There will be no better actions that to be there to stand beside me, I thank you.
Lastly is to my faithful and awesome God. You had been always there, never fail me even at times when I turn away with my lack of understanding of why things ought to go the way I don’t wish it had. Jesus, You had given me this chance to live again and I want to live it to the fullest for You, hence Lord, I want to serve You wholeheartedly.
All of you are surely the reason of why I am putting all my life to serve the Lord and impact the younger ones. (Mind you, problems are still there, but I know if my Lord is for me then who can be against me. I’ve got a peace in me that allow me to worry NOTHING.)
These young ones are surely the reasons why I am serving and serving at any cost for my God.
His name is Adrian Saw. He is my favourite in 611. (no favourtism)
That's me and Adrian. Look at his blur look; so cute lor..
This boy had taught me to share whatever I have just to see the smile on that someone's else face. He is only 5 years old and he knows the gift of sharing.
His smiles are what I needed for a stressful day.
His parents had showed the great and amazing love that inspired me to love more.
Thank you everyone.
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