Saturday, August 26, 2006
There are so many messages I typed in the night when I misses you. I dare not even open my eyes to view the future but only to close my eyes and dream in my perfect dreams. I know my feelings for you but I am just yet uncertain cause I want God to be the center yet at many times, is so tough to hold back and say God I will wait. I am turing 19 soon and the feelings of being lonely is so huge that I have no one to turn to physically in times of troubles. Where does my tears hide? Well, my answer will be, inside the tiny heart of mine which had been FULLY filled by you.
The current girl you like, is really like the rainbow after the downpour from Heaven. You know she will not be there for you long, you know the both of you have no future. You know everything is impossible between you and her even though she is a CHRISTIAN. Because of these, it had always keep me going. Going to wait for you, going to trust in you. Time waits for no man, but I know God holds time in His hands. Can you tell me what you want me to do for you cause is painful to wait and is painful to give up.!
I will not declare who he is or even mentioning how he looks like. (duh, HANDSOME! beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder). I will just share with you I have had feelings for this one guy. I just want to be accountable to people out there who really cares for me, I promise I won't fall to the trap of revealing my feelings but I will wait for him to come. He is very near me yet very far apart. I cant and will not say much else my feelings will be running wild once again.
Lord, I close my eyes for you to send me the best birthday present ever. I need someone strong for me to lean on. God many see the strong side of my personalities but Lord you see the weak where no one knows about. Thank you Jesus and Lord all I ask is someone who is willing to walk with me through the days of my life, giving me his shoulders for me to cry, give me his ears to hear my stories and Lord his heart to love You and worship me. God I engrave all the unseen words in my heart unto You.
You'll never know all the tears i've cried,
You'll never know how hurt i am inside,
You'll never know how long i've loved you,
You'll never know i think of you no matter what i do,
You'll never know how i feel will always be the same,
You'll never know that i can't stop these tears of pain,
You'll never know how sad i am when you're gone,
You'll never know you're the reason i've been alone all along,
You'll never know how much i care,
You'll never know all the pain i bear,
Baby can't you see, You're killing me,
I want you to know that i'll be there to the end,
coz no matter what i'll always be your friend!
Boy, this is what I see.
I look at the pictures of when I was happy
Pictures of you by my side
Before I ever knew of the things that you could do
Your love gave me life
Like my first breath
You picked me up
Took away my pain
Then you must've had your share of me and left
I fell and no one catched me
I'm dying, bleeding
Thinking of what we could've had
There's nothing left to do
I let you inside my soul
You crushed till nothing was left
You gave me my first breath
And you took my last
Shine His light
Daphne_Chloe
26/8/06 2325hr
11:02:00 PM
