Thursday, April 13, 2006
Do spare a thought for a girl like me
Coming to the end of the Orientations. I am glad and proud to say that I had really given my very best in all that I do. I had no regrets though at many times I fail but each and everytime I fall, I try my best to get up quick. Life is never the same again, having a great chance to work with people whom I like and dislike. I had really learnt to see beyond what each one of us is capable of. Surely I will bring this upon to my class and be a better class representatives from year 2 onwards.
This week I had learnt not to compare. Surely there is someone out there better than the other but what's going to be your reactions? To be jealous over it or to try your best and work your best out? Is easy to say though, cause as you are the better one, you kind of avoid the lousy ones and while you are the lousy ones, you felt there's no way you can get up. Yet life is not like that. Is really more about how you see yourself than how others look at you.
Yet having said all these, I almost broke down and cry today. We had our SIT meeting today at 10am. It was the so called release of which events we are posted to. Guess what? My name is not mentioned at any events. Seriously I have nothing to say because the pain was much more than words can describe. The seniors were not even sure of the people who are coming back to SIT club to serve. I was merely disappointed because I was thrown to somewhere without much considerations from them. It hurts so badly. I would say that is more than just being able to summit again. I have no words to say.. Well I don't blame the seniors as the time given to then were short.
I am proud of myself though. I move on in life though. I had really learn hard that maybe ranks seriously doesnt matter to me anymore as it doesnt belong to me anyway. To me I guess I will be more than happy being able to work alongside with people around me than to get the fame and the glory.
Slience maybe the best gift from Heaven.
I prayed silently inside of me.
As my heart cries out I know God hug me telling me I will go through with you.
Thanks people who always stand by me. Guess you are the best gifts God had given me in the SIT club. Hold on by faith and work hard on the events.
9:49:00 PM
