Tuesday, July 06, 2004
Yesterday was the worst day I had ever been through. I got hurt from my best buddies.. I always believe in whatever I am doing, I am going to commit it to God and nothing is impossible! But sometimes devils are clever too that they work in other ways to make sure you are convince and hurting ourselves at the end of the day!
I never thought of loving someone again cause I am so weak to move on in my love life, I thought I will never be compartible towards anyone and thinking that no one will ever like me.. I am so terrible!! Who on earth will ever give me a chance..? I don't really dare to love anyone anymore.. Just God...
But as got to know you, let me tell you, i got the feelings since the first time i seriously know you! The feelings was so strong that I wished it will last for long. I don't know what more should i do now, i am just leaving everything to God and allow Him to control whatever i am facing between us. It was hurt to hear you saying you don't like me, but i guess it takes time to prove and it takes time to forget!! Let me love you like before i asked. I hoope at the end of the day, be it whether we are together is not longer important, but what more important to me again will be that i once tell you i love you.
The feelings that i once gave, the feelings that i once said, i am going to say again, I love you!
Yesterday, had some misunderstanding with two boys and a girl.. Anyway it was over, i don't wished to mention it again, as i do hope that we all learnt from what had yesterday and not fall.. Let our friendship grows from there!! Those problems that we faced are problems that God gave to strengthen us! Whatever it is, i pray that God would guide us as we keep our focus on God!
Again, i said why i love you.. Because i know i love God and God grant me that heart to love you! To give you comfort and guide you through.. THank you for being there!! I know i stand no chance now, but i just want to care for a friend!
7:10:00 PM
