Saturday, July 24, 2004
Slient Prayer
In the dark, I feel God.
In the light, I see you.
In the day and night, I pray to God.
In some other times, I miss you!
I felt lonely and quiet, no one to turn to...
I felt sad and depressed when I see you...
I felt worthy and peace when Christ is there...
I felt love and satisfied when you are there!
What more can I ask?
What more do I need?
What more so I desire?
Christ and you gave my all!!!
Sad was me when you were far.
Joy filled me when I pray.
Peace granted to me when I asked.
Love covers me when You die for me!
6:15:00 PM
Friday, July 16, 2004
It was an honour to get back on track with God.. With cells and services to attend.. Keeping myself filled with His presence, thinking of Him and His greatness.. At times I just felt so unworthy.. But Jesus made it all for us!
First time attending cell in YMM.. Though there was a lot of talking about BB but is okie.. Just need to get used to it, or should I say.. I will pray that God's guidance to show this cell group where we want to go for God.. Being the honourable guest for the cell group who is out of the school BB or GB, i love the way this cell group goes.. The heart that each of us seeking for God.. Praise Him..
Have prayer, worship, discussing and prayers again.. The power of God working is when we asked in Jesus Name.. Realising the importance of prayer and also the spiritual battle that we all have to fight.. It is not easy, not God will guide us and help us along the way...
My prayers are not just for myself because i know my life have more than just me and God.. So everytime, i pray for God guideance in everyones' of our life, be it someone who knows or don't know about Him.. May God teach him and bless him/her in the day that HE had gave... Prayer for my parents' salvation that they may all be touched by me who is used by God.. I pray for my family as God will bless my family in whatever suituations we faced.. As a family, not facing and helping just one another, but also God guideance to lead us and show us the way.. Prayer for my schoolmates and classmates, that they know the meaning of studying in school.. The joy to be a students yet not a torture.. I pray for everyone who had yet to received God, received Him. The sick to recover..
Recently, had been praying hard about some stuff that i think i should let time decide, and let feelings growth.. For i believe, God will make my path straight in life whenever i have Him before me.. Also praying for Eugene and Daryl, for their safety and their work in Dompak.. May God lead them and guide them.. Used them and filled them..
All I asked in my name, Jesus is in-charged..
10:46:00 PM
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Everyday, i wait for the Lord to ease me with my anxiety, asking for peace in my life, patience towards everything. As i wait, i learn. As i seek, i realised. God grant and teach us in every ways, brothers and sisters, never give up on yourself because Christ Jesus will never give us up! Problems we faced are road that God gave to strengthen us, to make sure we learn and get up from the fall.. Jesus had overcome this world so now let us be like our Lord who had overcome the world with God who give us the strength.. He who believe that God helps, will go through Hell with no fear.. Let us prepare our heart for the new day for the week, to be blessed by children of God, to praise our Heavenly Father..
Keep your Sabbath Day Holy just for HIM..
9:44:00 PM
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
Yesterday was the worst day I had ever been through. I got hurt from my best buddies.. I always believe in whatever I am doing, I am going to commit it to God and nothing is impossible! But sometimes devils are clever too that they work in other ways to make sure you are convince and hurting ourselves at the end of the day!
I never thought of loving someone again cause I am so weak to move on in my love life, I thought I will never be compartible towards anyone and thinking that no one will ever like me.. I am so terrible!! Who on earth will ever give me a chance..? I don't really dare to love anyone anymore.. Just God...
But as got to know you, let me tell you, i got the feelings since the first time i seriously know you! The feelings was so strong that I wished it will last for long. I don't know what more should i do now, i am just leaving everything to God and allow Him to control whatever i am facing between us. It was hurt to hear you saying you don't like me, but i guess it takes time to prove and it takes time to forget!! Let me love you like before i asked. I hoope at the end of the day, be it whether we are together is not longer important, but what more important to me again will be that i once tell you i love you.
The feelings that i once gave, the feelings that i once said, i am going to say again, I love you!
Yesterday, had some misunderstanding with two boys and a girl.. Anyway it was over, i don't wished to mention it again, as i do hope that we all learnt from what had yesterday and not fall.. Let our friendship grows from there!! Those problems that we faced are problems that God gave to strengthen us! Whatever it is, i pray that God would guide us as we keep our focus on God!
Again, i said why i love you.. Because i know i love God and God grant me that heart to love you! To give you comfort and guide you through.. THank you for being there!! I know i stand no chance now, but i just want to care for a friend!
7:10:00 PM
